I Can’t Sleep

It’s almost 7am and still I can’t sleep. There are things that are bothering me.

2 years ago, same time… Ayumi got sick…

Since yesterday, Xavier is not feeling well and that same feeling came back again…

The trauma and anxiety are all over my system now.

I know it’s different now…

I know I should calm myself…

But I can’t help it.

 

I hope later I can find time to sleep.

 

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Teething Time for Xavy

I don’t get enough sleep last night because Xavy was not feeling well. The teeth are now showing up and he’s fussy until this very moment. He can’t sleep well because of slight fever and colds.

I had my meeting this afternoon and I was in a hurry to return home because I was thinking of Xavier. I am always like this if my kids are not feeling well.

I hope he will get enough sleep tonight and feel better soon.

 

Dream

I had a dream last night about a lost plane. I was so horrified and crying at the airport. I can see people around me screaming and crying. They are in despair.

Until I woke up… and thank God that it was just a dream.

Then I checked my FB…

Feeling shocked…

Because of this:

 

AirAsia flight QZ8501 from Indonesia to Singapore missing

2014 is almost over and still we have this devastating things that are happening. I pray that they will find the missing plane soon.

I hope God will comfort the families who are affected in this tragedy.

 

December 25, 2014

We went to Tagaytay with the gang but before that we went to SOM Girlstown first to be with Sr. Riza.

It is always nice to be with her. I am glad that she feels better now.

Then we went to Tagaytay to have our dinner at Leslie’s.

Our favorite Pork Sisig.

Seafood Chopsuey

Bulalo, perfect for a cold weather.

The Gang

With Irish

Xavier

Then we went to Sky Ranch. Ang lamig na sa Tagaytay. 🙂

Have our coffee at Bag of Beans then headed home. It was a great day.

 

Akala Ko..

Akala ko Linggo ngayon, Sabado pala…

Kagabi inisip ko na linggo na ngayon at isang tulog na lang Monday na, may meeting ako sa Makati pero Sabado pa pala.

Wala akong plano ngayong Sabado pero eto… kailangan  may gagawin ako.

Eto ang nakakainis sa December, maraming activities hanggang sa nakalimutan na ang araw at hindi normal ang mag trabaho ng todo kasi holidays nga. Ang lamig lamig pa, gusto kong matulog na lang pero hindi pwede dahil hindi na ako inaantok.

Gusto kong gumala pero tinatamad naman ako, kailagan ko kasing i-preserve ang energy ko sa mga dadating na araw dahil siguradong puyatan na naman at malamang sobrang traffic. Kailangan kong ipunin ang good mood ko. Saan ko kaya pwedeng ipunin? Ipasok ko kaya sa freezer ang good mood ko para mapreserve ng mabuti para kunin ko na lang kapag bad trip na ako sa mga nangyayari sa buhay ko.

Wala ang yaya, 2 days ng naextend ang vacation nya. Kaya kasama ko palagi ang mga bata, kaso tulog naman wala akong makalaro kaya eto sa blog ko na lang binubuhos ang time ko. Oo nga pala naghahanap ako ng book ng Best of Me sa Amazon pero sold out, nakakaloka, kaya ayon audible ang nakuha. Nakakainis pa ang internet ko kasi ang bagal mag download ng audible. Eto pa pala, may ginagawa pa ako… gagawa ako ng photobook ni Ayumi, kaso ang bagal mag upload ng pictures nya, kaya waiting period na naman.

Lagi ba talagang naghihintay? o minsan sana may maghintay naman sa akin? ahahahha awsss… meron na siguro. pero yon nga lang hintay hintay pa.. at malamang mapapagod din yon sa kakahintay.

Meron bang taong hindi napapagod? ako kasi wala akong pasensyang maghintay. Whatever I want, gusto ko makuha agad, kapag ginawa ko na lahat para makuha ang isang bagay na gusto at ayaw pa rin ibigay sa akin, yon deadma na sa akin. Move on na ako. Pero kapag internet ang mabagal, dyan naiinis ako, pero dyan ako natutong maghintay lalo na kung may projects akong gagawin. So may exempted pala, marunong din pala akong maghintay.

O sya, panuorin ko na lang ang mga movies na nakastock dito sa Laptop ko, baka sakali maubos ko na to at magpadownload ako ng bago.

Have a cold Saturday everyone!

 

Xavier’s First Christmas

I am excited for Christmas this year because it’s Xavier’s first one.

When we put up the Christmas tree earlier on November, he’s the first one who liked it. He’s eyes lighted up too for amazement.

When he saw gifts all over the Christmas tree, he wanted to touch it and play with it.

We made sure to give him something that he will like to play and also safe to use. I checked every gifts that was given to him. I made sure that it is safe for his age.

This little man is awake the whole time and I am glad that he likes the gifts.

Most of all, I am thankful to Almighty God for the giving me a chance to become a Mother to my 3 wonderful kids. Though the other one is Heaven already. Despite everything that I’ve been through, I still believe that life is still worth living for because I have my husband, Gareth, Xavier and my siblings.

 

Gift Giving

At 12midnight after eating, we are all excited to open our gifts.

This Christmas is special for us because it’s Xavier first Christmas and we are very excited to see his reaction.

We put him in the middle of the gifts and he was so happy.

He was so amazed…

First gift

and a lot more…

Irish gifts

Gareth’s gifts

I got a gift from him 🙂

My gift to him 🙂

Then we distribute gifts to my siblings:

 

 

 

 

 

It was a simple and peaceful celebration of Christmas. 🙂

Christmas Eve

On Christmas Eve…

The whole family attended mass. It is our tradition to attend mass around 8:30pm (the scheduled mass inside the village), then we went home. While waiting for 12pm we had our videoke.

The kids are excited to open their gifts but they need to wait until 12pm, so we had our dinner first.

 

We have our usual fruit salad, macaroni salad, Christmas cake and cupcakes, Kitkat cake, beef teriyaki, tonkatsu and of course the ham.

Xavier with tito and titas. 🙂

 

Merry Christmas everyone!