I miss my baby so much today. I wake up earlier than usual. I don’t know but I can’t go back to sleep. I want to hug her again. I really miss hugging and kissing her.
How I wish she is still with us…
But in moment like this, I just remember our conversation:
Pillow: (Wake up crying) Patay
Me: Sino?
Pillow: Lilo (referring to herself)
Me: No. Hindi pwede, malulungkot si mommy.
She never said anything after that. She just hug and kiss me. That is how we said our goodbyes. That’s how she informed me that she will die. That’s how she prepared me. I never thought that our conversation that time will help me in this moment of sadness. She is truly our angel. She never failed to help me.
But how I wish it never happened.. how I really wish that I can still see her today playing and full of life. I really wish…
