Suddenly..

Last Monday was so toxic. I was so worried because Gareth has high fever. So hubby decided to bring him to the hospital. Yes, since what happened to Ayumi, we are always paranoid when Gareth is sick. We really can’t sleep well. I keep on monitoring his temperature and even though we keep on giving him medicine, his fever is still not going down.

While they are at the hospital, I really can’t rest. I keep on thinking of Gareth. Gareth is crying because I am not with them. But I keep on calling him and assure him that everything will be alright. I am 8 months pregnant and I really can’t be with them because it is really hard for me to walk. My tummy is so heavy already. I was crying when they left. That’s how trauma works.

Sometimes I just control my emotions. It seems that the pain will just attack me anytime, either I am ready or not. But, most of the time I am trying to be positive. I am really trying to fight for it. There are times I fail and sometimes succeeded but I think the best help for me is to continue praying. I always ask the guidance of the Holy Spirit to help me manage my emotions.

Then, I got this one and it really helps me a lot.

 

'People can and do recover from trauma'. How to Manage Trauma infographic. [thenationalcouncil.org]