It’s been 5 years.. since I last hugged my Ayumi.
I miss her everyday!
I still don’t know how I made it this far. Maybe by God’s grace I was able to survive. Maybe I am trying to move on because I know there is nothing left to do.
My life after her is still way different than usual. It would be better if she is still around.
Sometimes I am just acting normal because it is the right thing to do but still there is part of me that is missing.
No one can fill it up.
I will forever long for her…
Maybe having Xavier is a big help for my survival. But he’s not a replacement. Iba iba sila. Iba ang pagmamahal ko kay Ayumi at iba din kay Xavier.
Iba iba din ang nafill nila sa puso. I know some grieving mom can understand me.
I just hope that she is still with us. I really miss her so much! If only I can have her back. 🙁
Everything seems so fresh. It’s been 5 years but still feel like yesterday. I still remember the pain.
So many things happened.. there were good and bad things since she was gone.
It really tested me as a person, specially as a mom.
There were times that I thought our family will never be whole again. I wanted to give it up… I’m just glad that God really guide me in everything.
It’s not an easy road. I have to deal with the pain every now and then.
I just hope that I will never lose my faith along the way…
Dear Ayumi…
Wherever you are right now.. I hope you will continue to guide and watch us always.
We miss you so much!
Love,
Mom