July 15, 2018
The day after my birthday.
We attended mass with Gareth.
He cried at the church when he heard those sad songs. We tried to console him but he didn’t stop crying so they went far away so they won’t distract other people inside the church.
That was actually always our problem when we are inside the church. It’s always an effort for us to finish the whole mass since Gareth don’t have patience. He will cry or make some noise and if ever we can finish the mass we always give him rewards.
After the mass, we went to Eastwood Mall to have dinner. We went to a Ramen Resto and this time Gareth was starting to get mad because he was hungry already.
We asked the waiter to give his food first and I explained to them his case. Luckily, the people in the resto served his food before he started crying.
I am used to it to explain to people around me whenever we are in public his case because some people don’t get it when special kids has tantrums. We experienced so many humiliating stares when Gareth is not in the mood and I really don’t mind them because I am focus on keeping him calm. When you see Gareth, you can’t tell that he’s special child but when he started getting mad like shouting and crying that’s the time that I need to stand up with my child. I know that sometimes he can’t control his emotions that is a delicate moment for him and that is also the best time that I will make him feel secure and it’s okay to meltdown.
He feel good after our dinner then we let him do the shopping. He’s so familiar with the area, first we went to Fully Booked first and it seems that he’s looking for a book then when he can’t find the title he was looking for then we went to a Toy Store, where he picked up the Sofia the First Writing Board. That’s the only one he picked up so we just get it.
Gareth loves to travel and go out in the mall or resto. Since he was a little I exposed him to go out and there are some people who were amazed because I never keep him away from public places.
I don’t really have plans of keeping him away from public places. I want him to explore the world though he is special. I don’t want to limit him, I want him to grow and adjust in the environment around him.
I’m glad that I did that because we can travel with him anywhere. Just like lately when he requested to go to South Korea. So maybe I should prepare their visas soon.
Having a special child is not easy but all through these years, I learn a lot and I love every moment of it with Gareth. I cannot trade this experience to anything in this world. I know God has a reason for all of this and I never questioned God anymore but instead I embrace this blessings with all my heart.