Month: January 2021

Thoughts

So 2021 came… then suddenly I was shocked of what happened…

Actually, I don’t really know how to open this thing here but as you know this blog is my personal space to express whatever I feel or anything I want to share… So think I should write it here just to release whatever I’ve been carrying since January 3, 2021.

Around 2am, I got a message from the office that one of my leaders died. It was a shocked to me. For minutes, I can’t move, I had chills and I don’t know what to say. It’s hard to believe… it was so painful. He was my leader for more than 2 years and we worked together for that long and I got to know him personally and in just like that he’s gone.

I was deeply affected. For a week, I was grieving and everytime I am in the office, it was not the same anymore. I lost a leader in my organization and this is the first time so I really don’t know what to do. By the way, it is not covid related so there is nothing to worry about health protocol in the office.

It took me a while before everything sinks in. I know he is in a better place now. It will never be the same but I need to be strong for the company. I know as a business owner, I will be strong and be able to step forward fast when something like this will happen but I am only human. Sometimes, I can’t carry it well but I always give myself time to mourn and heal also.

So that’s it.. I finally said it here and I hope this post will somehow lighten the heavy loads I am carrying this past few weeks.

I know I will get over it but for now… I am giving myself time to mourn…

Happy New Year!

2020 was a difficult year for most of us. We’ve experience the pandemic that change our lives. We live differently now and I think it will take time before everything will be back to normal again. Even me got affected. Our business was affected and there were some plans that never push through because of the situation. Some plans are put on hold because there is no way we can continue it. Few adjustments from here and there… We need to keep still and think ahead… Everything is in chaos. We can’t no longer plan as we did before instead we live in a moment. We learn to just focus on the moment. During this pandemic, I learn to focus more on my wellbeing, particularly in my mental health because if you are weak mentally, your body will follow and then it will weaken your immune system. So during this time, I make sure that I remove the toxic people in my life and I just focus day by day on my task. As a leader, it is hard at first but then I made a concrete plans on what to do day by day then eventually I get a hang of it.

Before I knew it, 2020 is finally over…. yay! 2021 is finally here and I know that this pandemic is still here but I hope that this will be over soon!

While waiting for it to be over, I will continue to do my routine and just focus on my health. I also learn that family is everything. I should spend more time with the family.

May this year bring us prosperity, good health and happiness!

Happy New Year Everyone!