Category: Personal

I seldom talk about celebrities but if I did, it must be someone relevant and I like so much.

While inside the car, going home from our short beach getaway and stuck in traffic, I  happened to open my phone and check my FB Feeds.

Then I shouted Oh No!!!!

I cried!

I just read that Anthony Bourdain commits suicide!

I really can’t believe it. He is the person I really admire. I wish he was my father. He’s carefree aura and the way he tells a story are the reasons that I like him.

Everytime I watched his shows, it feels that I am with him. I liked how he tell stories, simple yet different. I like how he explore with food and I learn how to do it. I tried different cuisine because of him. I tried the cheese platter because of him. I tried tasting different wine because of him. I’m curious about the blood sausage and I am looking forward to taste it on my future travels because of him. There were so  many things I love about him and when I watched his shows, I jokingly told to my kids that we are watching their Grandpa shows. LOL

It is because he is part of our household. When I was so tired of weeks of working and I wanted to breath but I can’t travel I just watched his shows and it instantly made me feel good. We even spent our whole night watching with all the food prepared infront of us. It is somehow our little way to relax and bond with the kids.

I even planned of going back to New York and wishing to meet him or even thinking of following his whereabouts and just have a picture of him. Oh well…

 

DEPRESSION

It saddened me that he ended his own life due to depression because when I was down in Depression, he is also one of the reasons why I surpassed that agony.

When I don’t feel like going out and continuing my life, I just asked hubby to play Anthony Bourdain’s show. We even downloaded all the episodes of his shows and I go on days watching it. It somehow made me feel good. The stories were inspiring and made me realized that life is still beautiful and there were so many places to explore. That I should go on with my life.

I just feel so sad that Anthony didn’t find that reasons to go on with his life.

Now that he is gone, I really don’t know what to watch anymore. We watched the episodes all over again and still it’s  hard to believe that he was gone.

You know that feeling when you’re done reading a book, but still not completely over it, that’s my real feeling right now. I’m now asking for more… I wanted more but I know I can’t have more. Maybe someday I can accept that it’s finally over but for now I will continue to wonder…

Rest in Peace Anthony

It’s been 13 years already without my Father. But still feels like so fresh to me.

I still remember how it all happened.

Everything was still so fresh….

 

 

 

 

Taken during on our way to Laguna.

I will share next time my memories on how my Father died and how we raised from that moment.

So many things are going on right now…

Sometimes I am so game…

But sometimes I am lost again..

I wanted some time for myself..

I need to breathe..

At the same time I am wishing for that familiar place…

I just want to be in that place again…

My so called home.

Last week was somewhat crazy. We were very busy and most of the time I am working. I am staying in the office to monitor the business.

But this week is somewhat relax. We were done the setup and everything is working great.

So it is also the best time to stay at home with the kids.

Xavier is demanding time and always asking why I am always in the office.

 

So all we ever do is spend more time together. I asked him to stay in the room while I am working. We read books together.

We play together.

I also stays in the bed hanggang sa makatulog na sya.

Some of you might wonder how my life right now…  well, I can say that I am blessed, really thankful for everything.  There were some trials and I know it will be always like that but I learn to live my life the way it is to be. Natuto na akong mag adjust at kahit papano nasasanay na rin. I don’t let those hardships control me though sometimes sobrang affected na talaga ako at feeling ko nakakapagod na kasi parang walang katapusan pero kapag magtiwala ka lang talaga na maaayos din lahat, eventually nagiging okay naman. I know that God is guiding me all through this time. Hindi nya ako iniwan kahit kelan.

I realized na hindi maging possible lahat to kung hindi dahil sa tulong ni God. Hindi ko makakaya lahat kung wala Sya. Hindi possible ang lahat kung walang Divine Intervention. I know that someone Higher than me take charge of everything lalo na sa panahon na hands up na ako, na surrender na ako.

I am so thankful at mas lalong nakakainspire na mas tumulong pa kasi alam ko na may nagtitiwala sa akin.

 

To God be the Glory!

Yes, it’s my Daughter quality time moment…

We seldom go out because she’s always busy in school. Halos kulang palagi ang tulog nya sa dami ng ginagawa nya sa school. So ako hindi na lang ako nagdedemand na makasama sya. I just let her finish her school activities tapos nong natapos na finally we were able to go out.

We are also preparing for her upcoming debut so madami kaming kinakausap na mga suppliers. Kaya ayan medyo busy ako lately.

Wala akong masyadong post kasi minsan kulang sa tulog at kailangan makabawi.

I made a preparation for her debut maybe at last week of Feb and her debut will be on the first week of April. But I am glad that we were able to book our suppliers na. 

 

 

We were looking for a ready made gown in Megamall but we don’t find anything, so we opted on having a made to order gown.

 

We just had our dinner and stayed in a coffee shop after.

Finally we had time to catch up. I like listening her stories.

It was a great time…

I am looking forward for more of our bonding time together!

I will be posting more about her debut preparations in the coming days.

Actually, she is our youngest sister but she seems like a daughter to me. She grow up with me and I provided everything she needed. She’s my responsibility so she’s like a daughter to me. She born from my heart and that’s all that matters.

Have a great day everyone!

 

 

XOXO

J

I went home early so we had our bonding time with the kids.

These two really made me so happy…

I love it when they get along. Xavier is a loving brother to Gareth. Gareth though he’s not verbal but they get along so well. He adjusted to Xavier’s tantrums and most of the time he give way to Xavier. He’s really a sweet kuya.

 

That’s what they do before bedtime.

I just love seeing them like that. It made me so proud and happy to have them.

It’s a busy week.

It’s also payday so we need to prepare for the payroll.

 

I was a little bit stressed so I need something that will brighten my mood.

Since I discover about Essential Oils, I got hooked by it and used it eversince.

I ordered it from U.S through a friend a year ago and now I need to reorder.

While working, I need to lighten my mood and it’s very effective.

It also helps my kids to sleep well.

So around 5am I tried to sleep then woke up around 8am for my 10 am meeting but it was moved to 12noon. Then went to the bank and to the office until 5pm. Then went home and finally sleep around 6pm.

I only slept 3 hours and by the time it hits 5pm I was so groggy. whew!

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Lately, there is so much drama around me. They wanted my attention into something that I am not really interested to.

The worst part is they are my family who are distracting me. They are trying to do something to get my attention to something that is not really my priority. I hate it.

Instead of helping me out since I have greater responsibility, they are the one who are trying to put me down.

All they want is to get my attention for their little dramas but they can’t even help me solved with my own problems.

I think it’s about time to distance myself to them. I’m so tired already.

Eversince, I made so much sacrifices for them but it seems that they will never stop of getting more. So tiring… I need to do something about it.

It’s not worth anymore. It is simply a distraction.

I need to focus myself on what’s really matters.

 

Since I am not feeling well these past few days, I end up sleeping most of the time. Then I wake up at the middle of the night and I realized that I slept too much and I don’t know anymore on how to go back to sleep.

Then the disaster thing happened…

I can’t stop my mind..

It keeps on bugging me…

But then I realized that I should control it.

I should do everything to control my mind or else it will control me.

So I just watched Netflix and listen to music and of course reading books.

Then eventually I’m back to normal… back to my own pace.