Xavier

Xavier Turns 8th Months

Happy 8th Months my baby!

Everyday is such a beautiful day with you. You brought so much joys and loves to us. I love you so much.

We decided to go out today to visit our Travel Agency office and just to go somewhere else just to relax. I’ve been very stressed over the week and I think I need to go out just to breath some fresh air.

We let Xavier go with us.

Xavier’s OOTD (Outfit of the Day) is from US Carters. The socks is from SM Megamall.

He loves of going out. He likes to smile to stranger. He is really an outgoing baby. He loves attention so much. He is not a crying baby anymore at the mall. He’s amazed on all the lights and colors around him. Everytime I look at him, I feel so blessed and lucky. I am thankful to God for having him into my life.

It was a great Fridate.. 🙂

Xavier is now 8 months and everyday with him is really fun and always a blessing. I love taking care of him. He loves to entertain us. He loves to dance while watching Hi-5. He brings so much joy and love to everyone.

Most of us in the house also noticed that he looks like her sister Ayumi. When I hold him close, I always remember Ayumi but I know that Xavier is different. He has his own personality but as a mom, I can see that they have resemblance.

I feel that God loves me so much to have Xavier in my life after that most painful event of my life. Xavier helps me see things differently now. I admire life now better than before. I am glad that I have Xavier after those painful event of my life because I know that I have with me a precious gift. A gift that I will forever cherish.

He is such our rainbow baby… I love you Xavier!

Rainbow Baby

Here with me is Xavier, our rainbow baby.

Parang kelan lang nasa tummy ko pa sya, ngayon 6 months na sya at kumakain na ng solid food. Sya ang bida dito sa bahay araw araw. Nakakatuwa syang alagaan. 🙂

Buong araw kaming magkasama kapag weekdays, I see to it na makita lahat ng developments nya. Nong umalis kami papuntang Clark, naiiyak ako na iwanan sya, kahit 2 days lang. Parang hindi na ako sanay na lumayo sa mga anak ko. Kaya habang malayo ako panay ang follow up ko sa kanila.

I think magpakabit na ako ng CCTV sa bahay para all the time macheck ko sila kapag wala kami sa bahay.

I can’t believe that I will feel this way again. Nong nawala kasi si Ayumi, akala ko hindi na ako sasaya pa. Akala ko hindi ko na mafeel ang ganito ulit. I am thankful for having Xavier and Gareth in our lives, kahit na ganon ang nangyari kay Ayumi. Maraming nagbago simula nong nawala si Ayumi. Marami din akong natutunan.

Lahat yon nakatatak na sa amin at kahit pa anong mangyari, hindi namin makakalimutan si Ayumi.

Check Up Time

Xavier has fever for 2 days already and I suspect it is because of teething but still I need him ro see his pedia. Pedia’s clinic today is here at The Fort but wala din pala ang pedia, so we went ro a different doctor. Eto every 4 hrs mag paracetamol at kailangan kong imonitor ang lagnat nya. Ilang gabi na rin kaming puyat kaya sana gumaling na si Xavier.

Kaya eto habang natutulog sya kailangan bumili ni hubby ng pagkain namin. Ayoko na kasing bumaba kasi sobrang init baka mas lalong sumama ang pakiramdam ni Xavier.

Eto ang view ko habang nasa loob ng sasakyan.

To all my readers please say a prayer for my baby boy for faster recovery.

Thanks!

Teething

Xavier will be turning 5 months and this time he is irritable and don’t sleep well. He also likes to bite his little fingers. He keeps on drooling and get mad if he has nothing to bite. This morning he has a slight fever and it really worries me. I give paracetamol as needed.

So this is it..

I hope the teeth will come out soon.

Xavier Turns 4 Months

July 10:

My little Xavy is not so little anymore. He just turned 4 months. So as a tradition, we bought him a cake and we have some picture picture moment.

This was taken when he woke up that morning. I was still half sleep while I took this picture. Sanay kasi syang manggising sa akin kapag nauuna syang gumising. Ang sarap gumising kapag ganito ka cute ang katabi mo. 🙂

So I had this conversation with hubby:

Me: Grabe ang hirap palang makatulog kapag may katabing gwapo.

Hubby: So 14 years ka na palang puyat. (Referring the years that we are together).

Me: Hindi naman… so far 4 months pa lang akong puyat.

Puyat ako minsan kakatitig lang kay Xavier. ahhahaha

Sleepless Nights

I have 3 kids and I knew the feeling of having sleepless nights. During Gareth’s time, I am always alone with him at our room because hubby that time was still working at a call center. At night time, I take care of Gareth and he cried a lot every night and don’t want to sleep on our bed, He just wanted to be close to me the whole night. I can’t put him down because he started crying endlessly.

During Ayumi’s time, it seems so easy. She cried a lot too but I have hubby that time to help me. It seems relaxed. When we looked back now, it seems that we forgot some of the details already about Ayumi. We hardly recall how we take care of her when she was a baby. All I remember was, we are busy working and she is just around us while we are working. Palitan kami ni hubby sa pagkarga sa kanya. Wala syang yaya that time kaya alam namin kami ang nag alaga sa kanya pero parang hindi na namin maalala lahat ng details at nagtataka talaga kami, samantalang kay Gareth parang sobrang fresh pa rin sa akin lahat. May time pa nga na sobrang pagod na pagod na ako sa pag aalaga parang pinabayaan ko na syang mag iiyak at biglang pumasok sa kwarto ang katulong at kinuha na lang sya at ako wala ng reaction. Siguro pagod na pagod na nga ako non. Lahat tanda ko pa rin, pero kay Ayumi parang may binura sa memories naming mag asawa.

Now with Xavier, parang masyado kaming occupied sa pag aalaga sa kanya. Ayaw din nyang humiwalay sa akin, kapag kinuha na sya ng iba umiiyak na sya. Kaya nahihirapan akong lumabas basta ng hindi sya kasama. Every 4 hours gigising sya para magmilk at grabe para na akong zombie. Katulad kagabi, maya maya ang gising nya at sobra na syang malikot. Hindi naman pwede na hindi ko imulat ang mata ko kasi natatakot ako na baka may nakatakip sa kanyang kumot kasi gusto na nyang matulog na nakataob, of course ayoko ng ganon kasi parang nahihirapan syang huminga. Kapag tulog na tulog na sya inaayos ko na ang higa nya.

Ayan bagong gising kami mukhang fresh na fresh lang pero gusto ko pa ulit matulog nan.

Mukhang maganda ang gising nya, samantalang ako parang hindi ko pa kayang tumayo. Kahit magkape pa siguro ako parang hindi ko pa rin kayang imulat ng matagal ang mata ko.

After ilang minutes tumayo na rin ako kasi ang likot likot nya, sinipa nya akong sinipa. It was already 10am, bumaba na kami at nag breakfast ako. Hinintay namin bumalik si hubby, sya kasi ang naghatid kay Gareth sa school. Pagbalik ni hubby umakyat ulit kami sa kwarto at naligo na si Xavier. Pagkatapos non, humiga na ako ulit. Hindi na talaga kaya…

Ang sarap ng tulog ko kasi ang lakas ng ulan at si Xavier ay nakatulog na rin pala sa tabi ko. Gumising ako ng 3pm na. hahaha nakabawi din ako.

Xavy at 3 Months

I can’t believe it.. Xavier just turn 3 months this month and I am so proud of him. It seems that yesterday that he is so heavy inside my tummy and now we are so amaze of God’s grace for having him. My days are exciting because we always have fun. I love to take care of him. I love to see him smiling. I love everything about him.

Photo: Happy 3rd Month Xavy! :)

His 3rd month cake. 🙂

Here, he just woke and he likes the rainbow blanket I created for him.

He is amazed of all the colors. 🙂

In his sleepwear.

He is talking to us.

After taking a bath.

I am busy the whole day of taking care of him and I don’t trust him to a nanny. I personally taking care of him and I love it. I love to see all his developments. I love it when he starts his day laughing and cooing. I love it when he looks for me and cry if I don’t carry him. I love to hug him until he fall sleep.

I never thought that I will feel this again. I never thought that I can feel this happiness again. Truly our God is so amazing. I know God plans for everything and there are times that we doubt Him specially if we get hurt but I never stop believing in Him. I know everything has a reason.

So if you think life is hopeless right now.. just hang on. I know God has better plan for you. Keep the faith!

Rainbow Blanket

After 3 months, finally the rainbow blanket of Xavier is done. I am crocheting while watching TV at night. Actually, I don’t crochet everyday as much as I wanted because I have so many things to do but doing crochet is really therapeutic for me. Everytime I do it, I forgot all my worries and just focus on my project. It made me relax and just enjoy the moment.

Here’s the finish product:

It is quite big, a size of crib and it will definitely keep Xavy warm, specially if we are traveling. He can use it while he is in a car seat or stroller. This will be his constant companion. 🙂

Now, that I am done with it, I have to catch up on my reading and maybe start a new crochet project soon.