Category: Personal

Looking back..

I am glad that 2017 is finally over. I started the year with a bang! I visited Maldives in the first quarter of 2017. It was my first time and it was simply the best. But believe me, before we went to Maldives, I was in deep trouble. I wanted to cancel our trip but so glad that on the last minute something good happened. A solution to a problem. So we went to Maldives feeling relieved but still thinking..

Though I was not in the mood of going to Maldives but I felt better when we get to the place. I was so amazed of the beauty of the place. Generally, it helped me relax and understand that no matter what I do to make things easy and to keep away from the problems, there is really something I should face and to deal with. I accepted the fact that there is always something to deal with, that challenges is part of what I am doing. I should not expect the easy one but praying for the strength to face the challenges.

I always prepare myself for the challenges and with that I learn how to relax and manage my stress.

My 2017 is all about learning. I was so determined to make my company grow yet along the way I made some mistakes. It was a great experienced. I learned so much about it and it made me who I am today. I am still a risk taker as I am, if I want to start something and close a deal, I am still so determined but this time I am more careful. I see to it to check all angles and possibilities before taking in.

In between February to November were a constant struggle. I never had a chance to have a vacation because I was so determined to work so hard and recover from the disaster we faced. I was focused and no one can distract me. In between those months I was glad that I made it. I never stop thinking of ways for us to grow. I started a dropshipping business and so glad that I made it. It was a good start and so inspired to make it grow. It will continue to grow in the coming years an I believed that I still have so much to learn. I still need to know more techniques and work so hard to make it happen.

Then here comes the last quarter, when our client invited us to visit U.S. As usual, I was hesitant to go because I don’t want any destruction. Some projects were just starting so I need to focus but I need to go. It’s my first official business trip. I got a chance to know more about our clients and we had our business planning that really a big deal in the coming years. So I was glad that I went in that trip. I later on realize that I should not limit myself. If something like this come up again, I should have this Go-Get attitude and never think too much, stop analyzing too much.

2017 is a great year.. not a bad year at all. I learned a lot from it and I am glad that I am now aware and open to any possibilities. I should not limit myself and help myself to grow more.

I am thankful for a good health for the whole family and for keeping us all safe always. I am thankful for all the people that I met along the way. I am thankful for all the people who continue to believe in me that sometimes I thought I can’t make it but they still believe my capability and it really helped me to face those challenges.

This year really helped me mature enough to learn and understand life. That sometimes we just let things happened the way it is to be because that’s life.

It’s been 11 days after 2017 and I know that so many good things are coming our way… Just Believe!

I am hoping for a better 2018!

I am ready for you 2018!

Two months ago I ordered from U.S sites. Actually, they are my favorite make ups. I’ve been using Anastasia for 2 years already. I ordered them from sephora.com

Actually, sa sobrang dami kong iniisip, nakalimutan ko na until my friend reminded me that my orders are ready for shipping.

Just in time for my grumpy mood. When I arrived last night and I got the package, I was so excited.

Feeling ko pasko na.. bigla kasi akong sumaya!

 

 

It’s my first time to order from Kylie and I am so excited. The lippies packaging are so cute and they smell so good too.

I am always looking for best facial set and I saw this brand and read good reviews so I think I should try this one. I ordered the travel size so I can test it with my skin first.

This simple things were simply made me happy. Na kahit saglit nakalimutan ko na may problema ako.

Okay.. I want to share something with you…

11 years ago, same thing was happening right now. I was so down and really don’t know what to do with my life. I had some financial and career issues. I started my online career and was so determined to make it as a living. To make the story short, I succeeded. I reached the potential income of my career and even build some businesses and bought some properties.

Fast Forward..

After 11 years, here I am with some financial issues because I am expanding my business. So this is not basically an issue but since I am a thinker and worrier, so sometimes I really can’t control my emotions. But I see to it to control my emotions and think rational. Oh yes, I am impatient and that is something that contradict everything. I wan’t everything to be done perfectly and in my own terms BUT sometimes life will take you to the things that you expect least…  or even tested you.

My point is… if I survived 11 years ago with less skills then I know that I will also make it this time. I don’t have a support system way back then. I spent night and day learning everything… I build my business from scratch and I know that I can make it BIG. I believe that everything will be okay soon. Challenges are always there… kahit pa maging okay na ang business, meron at meron talagang mga challenges. I was expecting it already. Lahat ng businesses may mga challenges, nasa atin na lang kung papano natin haharapin.

That is why… I am just taking things as it is. Minsan nga lang sobrang bilis ko na kaya parang apektado lahat, lalo na kung umaatake na ang pagiging pagka – perfectionist ko.

So ayan,  dumating lang ang orders ko naging maayos na ang pag iisip ko. The secret is simple.. make yourself happy or take care of yourself first in order for you to take good care of others more.

 

 

My goodness…

If you are reading my blog malamang familiar ka na sa stressed ko.

Hindi pa rin matapos tapos but I have a feeling na magiging okay na to soon..

So habang ganito ang feeling ko, hindi ako dapat mahulog dito..

dapat ako pa rin ang in control…

After my stressful meeting in Makati, we decided to have our dinner at Powerplant Mall and watched movie.

We had our dinner at Cibo.

Pasta naman ang gusto namin ngayon.

By the way, this is my make up of the day. I opted for red lipstick since I was so down and I don’t want it to be seen in my face.

I am quite sad this past few days…

Madaming inaasikaso… madaming dapat aayusin.

Nakakaloka!

Araw araw kailangan lumabas ako. May mga dapat kausapin…  at hindi lang yon, yong naghahabol ka ng time para maging maayos lahat.

Yong ikaw lahat nagdedesisyon at kailangan mong magdesisyon agad kasi kung hindi madaming maapektuhan at hindi maumpisahan.

Nakakaloka!

Yong miss na miss mo ng tumambay lang sa bahay… yong wala ka lang dapat iisipin.. Yon ang nakakamiss.. yon ang hinahanap ng katawan ko.

Yon ang gusto kong gawin pero hindi pwede…

Hindi dahil kailangan kong mag isip, kailangan kong lumaban sa buhay at hindi magpatalo sa mga problema.

 

Ganon.. ganon ang mentalidad ko lately…

 

Pero okay na rin to, okay na rin kasi busy ako at may pinagkakaabalahan. Eto naman ang gusto ko eh, pero grabe naman yata ang binuhos sa akin ngayon. Nakakabigla…

Minsan ang katawan at utak ko parang hindi ready.. pero bakit ganon, parang alam ng puso ko na dadating lahat to.

Parang nakaready sya…

Pero ang ibang parte ng katawan ko kailangan mag cope up… kasi kung hindi malamang manghihina sila.

Minsan kailangan talagang mag vitamins para kayang lumaban sa stress…

Pero walang tatalo sa tulog.. walang tatalo sa tamang pagkain at tulog.

Pero alam mo kung ano talaga ang nagbibigay sa akin ng energy.. ay yong makasama ang mga anak ko, yong time na matutulog na sila at katabi ko sila. Yon.. so perfect na yong ganon.

Doon pa lang babalik na agad sa 100% ang energy level ko at siguradong okay na agad ako.

Kaya nga nong may chance ako na makasama ko sila sa gabi, ayon grab agad. Ang sarap lang na panuorin silang tulog na tulog at kontento kasi kasama nila ako.

I realized that I should always do my best para sa future nila. Na kung ano man ang pinagdadaanan ko lately, magiging okay din lahat as long na magkasama kami.

 

So many things are going on right now in my life.

Suddenly… I feel tired..

I want to get away from it for a while.

I need to recharge myself..

 

 

Sunday

We went out with some of my team to check on the nearby preselling subdivision since we were planning to have real state benefits for our employee.

Our tripping ended around 7pm then we had our dinner at Coffee Project. Here are our order:

I was already starving and tired at the same time.

Tired but happy. I was able to reserve 10 units and it is for the future of my employees. I am praying that our business will continue to grow so I will be able to share more to my team.

I believe that so much good things will happen to our company and to my team. I can’t wait to share all great opportunities to them. It’s not easy but I know God will provide. I am just God’s instrument to fulfill His plans and I believe that soon will soar!

 

 

We went home to Los Banos to visit my Papa’s grave.

The Gang

A little background story:

Year 2005 my father died due to a liver cancer. We are newly wed that time so basically we were just starting our career. During that time I was also trying to get pregnant so only my husband was working. When my father got sick we shoulder his treatment and we do everything to provide whatever he needed that time. I sent him to private hospitals and drained our little savings for his meds.

He saw how I struggle to help him.

One day, when he had his ultrasound, the Doctor told me his hopeless case. It was one of the saddest moment of my life. That was the first time that I feel so hopeless too.

I prayed to all the Saints and Angels to help my father.

I really don’t know on how to face my father that time but he already knew his health situation, siguro dahil katawan naman nya yon.

Nahihirapan na rin syang kumain that time.

Few days before he was gone, he was living with me at my rented apartment in Cainta.

My house was bare, we don’t have extra room for him to rest, he slept at the living area. Lahat kaming magkapatid ay  nasa tabi nya nong last night nya. Natulog kaming katabi sya. He told us that he was happy with his life kahit daw madaming pinagdaanan na hirap. My father was an orphaned in an early age. Kung saan saan sya napupuntang kamag anak nong bata pa lang sya. May iba na kinupkop siya at may iba naman na pinapalayas sya. Masaya daw sya na kami ang naging anak nya. Masaya daw sya na kami nakasama nya kami hanggang sa huli.

Nong gabing yon, gusto na nyang umuwi sa Los Banos, kaya sabi ko inaayos na lang ang masasakyan nya pauwi ng Laguna. Pero nong umaga na bigla na lang syang nawalan ng malay.

Dali dali naming dinala sya sa hospital pero matagal syang walang malay pero after reviving him nagising din sya. Una syang tinanong ng doctor kung nakilala pa rin nya kami kasi karamihan daw sa may ganong cases hindi na agad nakakakilala. Pero grabe ang sharp ng memory ng Papa ko, nakilala agad nya ako.

Then another discussion sa mga Doctor, sabi nila wala na daw magagawa, hintayin na lang daw kung kelan kusang sumuko ang katawan ni Papa.

Feeling ko yon yong pinakamahirap na marinig, na sasabihan ka ng wala ng pag asa pero that time gusto ko pa rin talagang lumaban.

Walang wala na rin akong pera that time, hindi ko na alam kung ano ang gagawin. Kahit ang pag uwi namin sa Laguna ay hindi ko na alam kung saan pa kukuha ng paraan.

Nong nakita ko na parang nahihirapan na si Papa, lumalaban pa rin kasi sya pero hirap na hirap na syang huminga, lumapit ako sa kanya at kinausap ko sya. Sabi ko sa kanya na pwede na syang umalis.. pero wag nya pa rin kaming pabayaan. We made a promise… He made a promise… then he went HOME.

 

When I was a child, I still remember that everytime my father made a promise to me, he always do his best to honor his promises. There were times that he failed kaya yon ang naging dahilan kung bakit ako nagtatampo sa kanya. But later on bumabawi sya. Palaging ganon ang eksena namin, lalo na nong bata pa ako. But the promise he made before his last breath was indeed the best promises that we ever had. Until now, he is still fulfilling his promises.

 

I believe that whatever happened in my life right now, he is behind of it all. It’s hard to believe but he simply made everything happened and I know he will continue to do so. I really can’t believe on how he made it but it is all because of him.

That is why, I believe that death is not the end of it all, sometimes it is more powerful than we can imagine. Our departed love ones never really leaves us, they are still part of our life and just guiding us always. Just  learn to recognize them and you will be amaze on how they really wanted to be part of our daily lives.

So Papa.. thank you so much! Love you and I miss you so much!

We usually go out on a Sunday to go to church and to have dinner.

We don’t do it regularly specially if the weather is bad. I won’t my kids go out. Ang hirap umalis ng bahay ng umuulan coz’ I can’t bring them outdoor. My idea is to let them enjoy outdoor since most of the time nasa loob sila ng bahay. Kailangan ma expose din sila sa labas.

Just like Gareth, hindi sanay na walang aircon, kapag naiinitan na sya, naiinis na agad.

when he’s out and have no choice, nakakapag adjust din naman sya, pero sa umpisa  nagagalit sya, nakasimangot na at nagdadabog, but we try to ignore him and eventually maging okay na sya.

When they saw this decor outside Eastwood Mall, aba nagsipag pose na sila.

We also had our dinner at Seafood Restaurant in Eastwood, so while waiting for our food, eto kami. Nakasimangot na si Xavier kasi gusto nyang mag ikot ng mag ikot. Hindi namin pinayagan kaya ayan nakasimangot.

Ayan medyo galit na si Gareth kasi walang aircon. ahhaha

At si Xavier, may toyo pa rin. Ayaw tumingin sa camera.

I need to send her more messages para lang matablan. Basta na lang nya iniwan ang anak nya. I need to give her a lesson na hindi pwedeng basta basta iwanan ang anak. Kasi kung masasanay sya, baka mamaya mag anak na lan sya ng mag anak at iasa palagi ang bata sa ibang tao.

After sending her 3 long text messages, dumating sya. Hindi pa rin nya naikwento ang buong pangyayari kung bakit sya napadpad sa Paranaque samantalang ang paalam nya dito lang sya sa Antipolo. After a week pa nya bago binalikan ang anak nya na wala man lang pasabi kung ano ang plano nya. Natakot kami na kung ano na ang nangyari sa kanya, uso pa naman ngayon ang basta na lang mawala yon pala nasalvage na.

Ang akala pala na pwede ko pa syang tanggapin. Ngek, wala akong planong magdagdag ng sakit ng ulo. Madami na akong inasikaso para magdagdag pa ng iuntog sa ulo ko. Wala akong time na mag adjust sa kanya. Not to mention na muntik pang masunog ang bahay dahil sa kanya. Mabuti na lang at ang lutuan namin ay sa labas ng bahay kasi kung sa loob pa yon, malamang nasunog na kami. Nong una syang nagkamali, hindi ko man lang sya inaway. Pero grabe na talaga ang takot ko non kasi nandon si Gareth at Xavier sa harapan ng apoy. Nakakaloka! Ang ginawa ko lang non sa kanya ay kinuha ang cellphone na provided namin. Pinagbawal ko na din sa kanya ang gumamit ng laptop at cellphone. Simula non palagi na akong may takot kapag sya ang nasa kusina. Kapag wala kami, palagi akong nakatutok sa CCTV para lang mamonitor ang mga ginagawa  nila sa bahay. So nawalan ako ng peace of mind dahil sa kanya.

Sobrang dami ko na yatang trauma, tapos nadagdagan pa nya. Kaya nong bumalik sya, kulang na lang talaga durugin ko sya. Kaso iniisip ko masasaktan din ako kapag sinapak ko sya ng todo, sayang naman ang skin ko kung magkapasa din. Kaya pinahakot ko na lang ang gamit nya. Eto pa, sinundo nya ang anak nya na wala man lang syang pera, so pagkatapos ko syang awayin nagbigay pa akong 500. haist! Kung hindi lang ako naawa sa bata.

Anyway, ang mahalaga nakaalis na sya. Wala na akong takot na kung ano pa ang pwede nyang gawin sa mga bata at dito sa bahay. Sa ngayon, ayoko ng kumuha ng katulong. Nakakatakot na. Ako pa ang mag aadjust sa kanila.

I am just happy that finally I kick her ass out!

 

FINALLY…

 

I was thinking of having my new hair cut but when I arrived at the salon, I changed my mind. When I saw my faded and ugly red colored hair, I decided to change it.

Instead of just staying at the salon for 30 minutes, I stayed 2 hours. I get so hungry and I asked hubby to bring me food.

Heto na naman.. tiis ganda na naman ako. Ang hirap kaya magpakulay. Ang hapdi sa ulo at mabaho ang pangkulay. Tinitiis ko kasi gusto ko. Kailan nga ba nagsimula ang pagkahilig ko sa kulay? Well, siguro yon yong time na wala na akong time masyado mag ayos ng buhok. Kapag may kulay kasi buhok mo, kahit konting effort na lang na curly curly ang hair parang nag effort ka na. Minsan naman I just used my brush straightener, ok na agad. Pero favorite ko kapag magbun ako ng hair, dahil ayokong mag plantsa o magcurl so kahit nakapuyod lang, ok na agad. I always wanted to have highlights kasi ang ganda tingnan kapag nakapuyod ako. So eversince eto na ang peg ko, colored hair with highlights.

 

Tiis ganda moment…

After 2 hours, natapos din. I simply love it. 🙂