{"id":1125,"date":"2013-02-07T03:35:27","date_gmt":"2013-02-07T03:35:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1125"},"modified":"2013-02-07T03:35:27","modified_gmt":"2013-02-07T03:35:27","slug":"why","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1125","title":{"rendered":"Why"},"content":{"rendered":"

I always asked Why? Why all this things need to happen? I have so many questions. I even wondered if I am a bad person. I don’t know but there are so many questions coming everyday. The worst part is I don’t get any answers. Most of the time, I just left the questions hanging.<\/p>\n

Everytime I checked her pictures and videos, I still feel amused because I can’t believe it that she is already gone. The videos that I have with her reminds me everyday that she stayed with us. That she is with us for 2 years and 5 months. It hurts so much to think that the life I used to live is now change forever. I can no longer touch her chubby cheeks and feel her kisses and hugs. I miss her everyday!<\/p>\n

Moving on? that is what people want me to do. With all the pain I am right now, I don’t think I can move on. I don’t know how to start moving on but believe me, I am hiding the pain. If ever you see me laughing and smiling again, I am not moving on. I am just hiding the pain. The pain that will continue to grow until I will see her again.<\/p>\n

Some people told me that I am still young and we can always have a new baby. Yes, we can have but I don’t think I can have a new baby as a replacement for her loss. No one can replace her. If ever we will have a new baby, a baby is not a replacement but a new blessings. Ayumi will always be special and no one can replace her in my heart.<\/p>\n

I can have a dozen more children in the future but Ayumi will stay special. I will forever miss her and longing for her.<\/p>\n

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I always asked Why? Why all this things need to happen? I have so many questions. I even wondered if I am a bad person. I don’t know but there are so many questions coming everyday. The worst part is I don’t get any answers. Most of the time, I just left the questions hanging.… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[196,253],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1125","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ayumi","category-grieving-mom"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1125","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1125"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1125\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1126,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1125\/revisions\/1126"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1125"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1125"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1125"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}