{"id":1168,"date":"2013-02-20T03:00:40","date_gmt":"2013-02-20T03:00:40","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1168"},"modified":"2013-02-20T03:00:40","modified_gmt":"2013-02-20T03:00:40","slug":"dreams","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1168","title":{"rendered":"Dreams"},"content":{"rendered":"

I have so many dreams about her lately. On our way to South Korea, at the plane I dream about her. She is looking at me as if I scolded her.<\/p>\n

Me: I got mad! You always have a choice to go back, you always have a choice not to go yet but still you left me. I am so mad at you.<\/p>\n

Ayumi: She just looked at me and feel sorry.<\/p>\n

In that scene, I really never thought I can tell that to her because I never hate her but in that dream I express something I can’t do.<\/p>\n

One of the nights at the hotel, I dream of her again. We had our conversation.<\/p>\n

I keep asking her different questions but I forgot it already.<\/p>\n

Me: Asan si Pillow<\/p>\n

Ayumi: Patay na si Lilo (She still called herself Lilo)<\/p>\n

Me: Bakit ikaw pa?<\/p>\n

Ayumi: Mommy, kailangan na si Lilo ni God.<\/p>\n

I woke up and I start crying.<\/p>\n

Some questions are now slowly answered. It’s just nice to know that she is the one who is helping me with the answers. I know it’s hard also for her but I am happy that she is trying.<\/p>\n

I feel good everytime I had a dreams about her. It’s not everyday that I dream her and everytime it happens, there is a special message.<\/p>\n

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I have so many dreams about her lately. On our way to South Korea, at the plane I dream about her. She is looking at me as if I scolded her. Me: I got mad! You always have a choice to go back, you always have a choice not to go yet but still you… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[196,253],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1168","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ayumi","category-grieving-mom"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1168","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1168"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1168\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1169,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1168\/revisions\/1169"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1168"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1168"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1168"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}