{"id":1273,"date":"2013-03-27T09:11:50","date_gmt":"2013-03-27T09:11:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1273"},"modified":"2013-03-27T09:11:50","modified_gmt":"2013-03-27T09:11:50","slug":"holy-week","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1273","title":{"rendered":"Holy Week"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Holy week, this is the best time to reflect. This is the time to renew faith and a time to evaluate our soul if we are really living the way God’s plan us to be.<\/p>\n

Of course, there are moments that we don’t know what are our purpose here. Sometimes, we asked God for our purpose here on Earth. That things bother me sometimes and I hope that in my little way, I am living on my purpose. \u00a0There are times that, I am not sure anymore if I am doing the life I wanted to be then I realized that no matter what I am doing, I know that my angels and God is with me and He will not allow me to do things that is not according to His plan.<\/p>\n

I think it is just normal for us to feel lost sometimes and if ever I feel that way, I always find time to pray and reflect. In that way, it helps me to go on with my life because I believe that God has a better plan for me and I am excited for it.<\/p>\n

As a mom who lost a child, there are moments that I wanted to end my life. Actually, a lot of times I think of ending my life. I don’t think I can go on with my life without my daughter. I know it’s normal to feel this way. I am so grateful to my husband who stays with me always and stays strong despite what happened. I am not perfect, everyday is a struggle for me and it may look normal in the outside but deep inside I am broken. I wish to feel that happiness and completeness again but I don’t think it will happen again. The two years I have with my daughter seems so perfect. The moment I have both my kids with me and just seeing them both happy is the happiest moment of my life. I know there are so much things to expect that may make me happy again but for now I don’t see it anymore.<\/p>\n

Empty shell – that is me, I miss hugging my little one and I envy to all the angels in heaven because they have her. Everyday I woke up, amazingly I feel good and I don’t know why. I can’t remember dreaming of her or being with her but I feel good. This is a miracle. I know this is the work of my little Angel. There are things that is hard to understand but I know that good things are sometimes hard to understand.<\/p>\n

With this pain I feel right now, I know there is a purpose of it that may be hard for me to understand right now but in a right time I will find out why.<\/p>\n

When good things happen to my life, I don’t question God. Now that bad things happen to my life, do you think I have the right to question God?<\/p><\/blockquote>\n

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