Okay, I am still here and if I don’t know what to say I just make the date as the title of my post. Today, is quite a busy day in the office. I am now posting new tour packages and answering queries. I have assistant but I still love to deal with my client personally.<\/p>\n
I am also promoting my spa and my assistant is busy texting our clients. I am glad that the heat issues in our spa is now resolved. I am glad that clients are now happy to stay at the spa. We spent the whole week finding out the solution of the heat issues and finally, it’s over now.<\/p>\n
I also checked the stored pictures on my phone because Gareth loves to take and view pictures. I found out that the last time me and my daughter had pictures was last Dec. 28. How sad is it? There are new pictures on my phone and I just feel so sad that I can’t add new pictures of her anymore unless I will took pictures of her grave and that I hate doing. I hate to think that that is the only place I can take her pictures. Sooo heartbreaking thought!<\/p>\n
So far this past few days I have extra strength to deal my life. I think I have no choice but to continue living my life though I know I can never be the same anymore.<\/p>\n
Sometimes, I even wonder why I am still here. I don’t know anymore why I continue living and my daughter is not with me anymore. What is purpose here? I don’t feel like living anymore but I know I should continue and hopefully I will get to know the reasons why I am still here.<\/p>\n
I even told hubby that when I die, that is the happiest time of my life. I know he feel sad when I told him about it but that is the truth. I know that it will be the happiest time because I finally get a chance to see the other side. I finally see from my own point of view the other side. Maybe, I am laughing out loud while entering the gate of heaven or maybe ask my angel to take me where my daughter is staying. Isn’t it a wonderful thought?<\/p>\n
I know it will come but while waiting for that happiest moment of my life I will continue living and finding my real purpose here on Earth. Maybe, I already knew my purpose and I hope I am living my life the way God wants me to be.<\/p>\n
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