Today, the last horrible scene is keeps on coming back on my mind. The last minute of Ayumi in the hospital are keeps on playing on my mind. It hurts a lot. That horrible feeling is keeps on coming back today and I don’t really know how to deal with it but I keep it on my own. I don’t want to talk about it anymore because even talking about it is so hard. But I realized that I should post it here just to release it from my mind.<\/p>\n
The last scene where the doctors were reviving her and seeing her lifeless body is the most depressing feeling I ever felt. If I remember it, I really can’t believe how I survived it. It was the most painful feeling and wishing to God that it was just a dream. The truth is I don’t want to remember that event anymore because it really made me feel so down but there are really moments that it just came into my head out of nowhere.<\/p>\n
Trauma. Yes, I know it and just going back or just passing to a hospital makes me feel so afraid and I can feel my body is trembling. I hate the feeling and hoping that one day, the trauma will gone.<\/p>\n
I don’t know if I need doctor for my trauma. What do you think?<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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