It’s a busy Monday. I went to my Spa earlier because I need to talk to the supplier then headed here at my travel agency office. It was fun being busy because that is the only way I got a chance to stay away from pain.<\/p>\n
When I came here at the office, I am busy answering all the inquiries and all of a sudden I browse my log book where I wrote some Pillow’s development when she was still a baby. I wrote when she started crawling and sitting. I also write the first time she ate solid foods. Whew! Everything turns back again! I suddenly feel sad and I think I have to post it here just to release the sadness.<\/p>\n
I can’t be sad the whole day because later I have meetings and I don’t want to show it to people. As a leader, I should hide my feelings so that I can manage my people well. This is maybe one of the hardest thing to do.<\/p>\n
I just miss her so much. Sometimes, I thought that she is a wonderful dreams but everytime I look around, I can see traces that she was really here, then I feel robbed. She was taken away from me and I can’t do anything about it. Acceptance is hard, there are times that my mind can’t process the pain and that is the time that my heart will help my mind understand things.<\/p>\n
While writing this post, the radio played Pillow’s favorite song “Call Me Maybe”. I know that she is really trying to remind me that she is still around.<\/p>\n
I am just glad that I have this blog that I can easily express my feelings.<\/p>\n
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