Today is the day that I don’t want to move. I just want to stay in bed and wishes not to wake up anymore. The pain is killing me and it leads me to anger. I hate why I am still here and my daughter is not with me. I feel so empty. I miss her so much that I don’t want to stay here anymore.<\/p>\n
I hate my life right now. I hate it! I am trying so hard to move on but I don’t know if I can even go on like this anymore. I am lost! My life is a mess! I am trying to make it alright but I still hate it.<\/p>\n
Why I am still here? I don’t know anymore of what to do with my life. The pain is so powerful and its drowning me. I don’t know if I can still be fine again. This roller coaster ride of pain and grief is so powerful that I don’t know anymore when will it be over. I don’t know if I can overcome it.<\/p>\n
I hate it when I feel this way but this is what I am feeling right now. I miss my child so much and that feeling is killing me. \u00a0I want her back!<\/p>\n
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