{"id":1524,"date":"2013-07-03T15:51:56","date_gmt":"2013-07-03T07:51:56","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1524"},"modified":"2013-07-03T15:51:56","modified_gmt":"2013-07-03T07:51:56","slug":"something-to-think-about-4","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1524","title":{"rendered":"Something To Think About"},"content":{"rendered":"

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Today is Ayumi’s 6th month in Heaven. I don’t know how \u00a0I made it but through the people who loves and prayed for us we were able to live each day one at a time.<\/p>\n

I miss her everyday and I wishes that she is still with us. There are days that is so hard but of course there are still better days. I am so thankful that despite what happened we are still hopeful for a brighter days. There are so many things had change and I know that I can never be the same ever again. This is my new normal and I know that I should be dealing this forever.<\/p>\n

The future are still blurry and I don’t want to think so much about it anymore. I just live my best everyday. I just do things that I know is right for that particular moment.<\/p>\n

I know that I am forever carrying this pain but of course I can still live and smile while I am in this pain. Love is long suffering indeed and I will offer my pain to God, to Mama Mary and to St. Pio, I know they will help me get through this.<\/p>\n

I know that everytime I know someone who are sick, specially if Gareth is sick I really can’t focus and my panic attack is in a maximum level. Just like last night, when he started vomiting and has high fever. We went to hospital and I really don’t know what to do anymore. \u00a0I am glad that we went home and Gareth is feeling good today. His fever is not as high as yesterday and that is due to tonsilitis.<\/p>\n

Thanks everyone for the prayers.<\/p>\n

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I know that Ayumi is helping us get through the pain.<\/p>\n

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  Today is Ayumi’s 6th month in Heaven. I don’t know how \u00a0I made it but through the people who loves and prayed for us we were able to live each day one at a time. I miss her everyday and I wishes that she is still with us. There are days that is so… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[253],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1524","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-grieving-mom"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1524","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1524"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1524\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1525,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1524\/revisions\/1525"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1524"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1524"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1524"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}