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<\/p>\nIf only you are here with us today, we will be having a grand celebration, just like what we used to do. Maybe for the past 3 months I am busy preparing for your birthday. Maybe I already order your birthday gown months before your birthday. But not… I never did all those things because there we don’t have you anymore here. You are there and I know that you are happier in Heaven now.<\/p>\n
I feel so sad today knowing that I cant’ have you in your very special day. The emptiness is here to stay and I don’t know if this will go away. I wish to hug and kiss you on your birthday. I wish to sing you a song. I want to see your happy face again. I miss you so much Pillow.<\/p>\n
This is your first birthday without us and I hope that you have the best birthday in Heaven. Please always remember that we love you so much. No matter how hard I wish that you are here with us today, I know it’s hard.<\/p>\n
I really can’t stop crying… my tears are just keep on falling. I just miss you so much!<\/p>\n
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Happy Birthday in Heaven<\/strong><\/p>\n I wish you were here today The only gifts today will be Today I’ll do my very best I’ll sit quietly and look at your picture May the angels hold you close and If only you are here with us today, we will be having a grand celebration, just like what we used to do. Maybe for the past 3 months I am busy preparing for your birthday. Maybe I already order your birthday gown months before your birthday. But not… I never did all those things because… <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[196,14,253],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1586","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ayumi","category-birthday","category-grieving-mom"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1586","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1586"}],"version-history":[{"count":3,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1586\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1588,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1586\/revisions\/1588"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1586"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1586"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1586"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}
\neven for just a little while
\nso I could say Happy Birthday Pillow
\nand see your beautiful smile.<\/p>\n
\nthe gifts you left behind;
\nThe laughter, joy and happiness…
\nprecious memories…the best kind.<\/p>\n
\nto try and find a happy place…
\nstruggling to hide my heavy heart
\nand the tears on my face.<\/p>\n
\nthinking of you with love;
\nhoping you’re doing ok
\nin Heaven up above.<\/p>\n
\nsing you a happy song…
\nand I’ll be sending wishes to you
\ntoday and all year long.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"