{"id":1640,"date":"2013-08-28T15:45:30","date_gmt":"2013-08-28T07:45:30","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1640"},"modified":"2013-08-28T15:48:05","modified_gmt":"2013-08-28T07:48:05","slug":"if-only-i-knew","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1640","title":{"rendered":"If Only I Knew"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>If only I knew that I would lose a child, do you think I will still carry her in my tummy for 9 months?<\/p>\n<p>If only I knew that the day will come that I will bury her, do you think I will still carry her around?<\/p>\n<p>If only I knew that I will not see her again, do you think I will still give her the grandest parties?<\/p>\n<p>If only I knew that I will not hug her for that long, do you think I will still spend sleepless nights with her when she was sick?<\/p>\n<p>If only I knew that I will not hear her voice again, do you think I will ignore her every words?<\/p>\n<p>If only I knew that I will choose a casket for her, do you think I have to plan her future?<\/p>\n<p>If only I knew that I can&#8217;t have her in my side during the night, do you think I will still buy her a blanket to comfort her?<\/p>\n<p>If only I knew that her days are just numbered, do you think I will take millions of pictures of her?<\/p>\n<p>If only I knew that it would be her last Christmas, do you think I will get her all the toys that she wants?<\/p>\n<p>If only I knew that I won&#8217;t be having her kisses anymore, do you think I will ask for more kiss or just avoided her kisses?<\/p>\n<p>If only I knew that it would be this hurt losing a child, do you think I still have the courage to have her in my life?<\/p>\n<p>No one knows that it will happen.<\/p>\n<p>And even if I knew, I will never change a single thing.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t have regrets for everything I&#8217;ve done for her.<\/p>\n<p>Because that is the mother&#8217;s love and she deserves it all.<\/p>\n<p>She deserves all my love and attention and if ever she will live again and I knew that it will end the way it ended, I will still show the love and care for her.<\/p>\n<p>I will not change anything though I know how hard it is to lose a child.<\/p>\n<p>Whatever the pain I&#8217;ve been through, I will take it all because having her in my life is bigger than the pain I am experiencing now.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-e-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-frc3\/401326_4828758637724_1470789332_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-h-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-ash3\/574607_4828766597923_278866945_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-b-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-prn1\/68025_4828871640549_828105987_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-f-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-prn1\/562712_4350775248438_1030852835_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-b-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-frc1\/480527_4350776568471_371950615_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-e-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-frc1\/297562_4350781128585_2136351894_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I just miss you so much baby!<\/p>\n<p>I love you!<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>If only I knew that I would lose a child, do you think I will still carry her in my tummy for 9 months? If only I knew that the day will come that I will bury her, do you think I will still carry her around? 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