{"id":1819,"date":"2013-12-03T17:12:50","date_gmt":"2013-12-03T09:12:50","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1819"},"modified":"2013-12-03T17:12:50","modified_gmt":"2013-12-03T09:12:50","slug":"11-month-without-ayumi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1819","title":{"rendered":"11 Month without Ayumi"},"content":{"rendered":"

Today is not just like any ordinary day. Today is the 11 month without my daughter. Everyday is battle between my mind and heart because there are times that I have questions why she’s gone too soon. As a mother, I know there are days that I am on my lowest point, specially if I miss her.<\/p>\n

I am getting used to it. I am used to this pain that I carry everyday. I am used of missing her everyday. I am used for that special moment where I hardly wish so hard that she is still here with us. I am used to it and I will be like this forever.<\/p>\n

Everytime I see kids on her age, I wonder how she will become. It seems that my future with her is taken away from me. I have no choice but to continue living and just wait for that special moment that we will be reunited again.<\/p>\n

It’s 11 month already but it seems like yesterday. I miss her so much and everything about her seems so fresh. Everything will never be forgotten and I hope she will continue to watch over with us. I know she is happy right now in Heaven because Mama Mary and Jesus are taking care of her. I know that they can take care of my child more that I do.<\/p>\n

The sad part is that Christmas is coming and we will try our best to celebrate it the way we used to be when Ayumi was still with us. I don’t want to disappoint her. I wanted her to see that we can make it through.<\/p>\n

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Grow your wings baby…<\/p>\n

You are our little angel always.. We miss you so much!<\/p>\n

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