{"id":1847,"date":"2013-12-17T14:23:44","date_gmt":"2013-12-17T06:23:44","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1847"},"modified":"2013-12-17T14:28:53","modified_gmt":"2013-12-17T06:28:53","slug":"to-my-christmas-angel","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=1847","title":{"rendered":"To My Christmas Angel"},"content":{"rendered":"<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-e-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-prn2\/1480698_679817478705864_279891279_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Our Christmas this year is way different without Ayumi. She&#8217;s our source of Joy and it hurts to know that we will be celebrating our first Christmas without her. \u00a0When I started decorating this year, I really think of her. I know that she will shout &#8220;wow&#8221; everytime we light our Christmas Tree and I put those cute decors.<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-h-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-prn2\/184559_4945180628201_1364542937_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>I think moving to our new house is really a big help. I see things differently now and everytime I feel sad, the baby inside of me will start kicking. It made me realize that I should not dwell so much on the past but prepare for the new baby&#8217;s coming.<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-e-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-prn1\/44532_4742167513000_337457932_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>So much things are going on in our country lately and it made me feel sad. I feel sad that I don&#8217;t feel the same excitement as before when Christmas approaches. There is really a big difference. I am finding ways that will make me feel that same old feeling again but still I can&#8217;t. So to take the blues away, I started planning the birth of our new baby. I hope it will make me feel better.<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-d-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-frc3\/304982_4458673425825_1854687536_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>I may don&#8217;t understand everything that is going on but I believe God has a reason why all this things are happening. The emptiness I feel will forever stay and I know only time can tell if I can overcome this. As a mother, it is really hard to believe that I lost one but I believe in God&#8217;s miracles. I know someday I will understand&#8230;<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-g-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-frc3\/1507895_679982162022729_890232408_n.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Despite of everything, I still wish everyone a Merry Christmas! Have a blessed one and please don&#8217;t forget to share your blessings. \ud83d\ude42<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>Our Christmas this year is way different without Ayumi. She&#8217;s our source of Joy and it hurts to know that we will be celebrating our first Christmas without her. \u00a0When I started decorating this year, I really think of her. I know that she will shout &#8220;wow&#8221; everytime we light our Christmas Tree and I&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[196,18,253],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-1847","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ayumi","category-christmas","category-grieving-mom"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1847","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=1847"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1847\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":1849,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/1847\/revisions\/1849"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=1847"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=1847"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=1847"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}