{"id":2543,"date":"2014-11-02T00:24:42","date_gmt":"2014-11-01T16:24:42","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=2543"},"modified":"2014-11-02T00:54:16","modified_gmt":"2014-11-01T16:54:16","slug":"ayumi","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=2543","title":{"rendered":"Ayumi"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>This is the second time I celebrate Halloween without Ayumi and because of that I don&#8217;t have any plans anymore of letting Gareth and Xavier join any Treat or Trick. I don&#8217;t know but I am not as excited as before. I don&#8217;t feel good about it anymore. I don&#8217;t see any sense of it just like before. Maybe someday, this will change, if Xavier will requests to join a Treat or Trick. Just&#8230; maybe&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>Hubby and I visit &#8220;Ayumi&#8217;s place&#8221; around 3pm. It was raining earlier but the weather turns out good when we reached her place. We offer flowers and candle and say a prayer. I really wish it was not this way. I should not be the one visiting my daughter during this time. She should be the one who will put me in that grave but it&#8217;s the other way around. That is the reason why I am so down during this moment.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/scontent-a-lax.xx.fbcdn.net\/hphotos-xfp1\/v\/t1.0-9\/10441479_10204834224276289_8228587880804893511_n.jpg?oh=080d71c500ba65f69b07866daf5a70df&amp;oe=54F86633\" width=\"576\" height=\"324\" \/><\/p>\n<p>I never stop thinking of her. I never stop dreaming to have her again. I want her back. I really do&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-c-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-xpa1\/v\/t1.0-9\/8944_10204830110733453_2225882503192103211_n.jpg?oh=65138f090f3f6a40aaabae0093162ae0&amp;oe=54F2EE94&amp;__gda__=1425281814_dafec2dbb5ac3b263370aa41517fa6e1\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/scontent-b-lax.xx.fbcdn.net\/hphotos-xpf1\/v\/t1.0-9\/10525357_10204830118853656_6562518225531504827_n.jpg?oh=c426b1f72fc279b942f3051977e0fdc2&amp;oe=54E2770A\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/fbcdn-sphotos-f-a.akamaihd.net\/hphotos-ak-xpa1\/v\/t1.0-9\/10672086_10204830126653851_4440727211033620831_n.jpg?oh=7158530d437d40388067ab271fa77657&amp;oe=54F4AE8E&amp;__gda__=1420448664_9e366cee4fdcc0c83fadec2e5abd5ab6\" \/><\/p>\n<p>Ayumi&#8230;.\u00a0I will carry you with me till&#8217; I see you again.<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>I miss you so much&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p><img decoding=\"async\" alt=\"If I could hear.....Your Laugh\" src=\"http:\/\/media-cache-ak0.pinimg.com\/736x\/9f\/81\/04\/9f81044bd5530f53aee11d3eaa9dbe74.jpg\" \/><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>This is the second time I celebrate Halloween without Ayumi and because of that I don&#8217;t have any plans anymore of letting Gareth and Xavier join any Treat or Trick. I don&#8217;t know but I am not as excited as before. I don&#8217;t feel good about it anymore. I don&#8217;t see any sense of it&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[196,253],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-2543","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-ayumi","category-grieving-mom"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2543","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=2543"}],"version-history":[{"count":2,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2543\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":2545,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2543\/revisions\/2545"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=2543"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=2543"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=2543"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}