{"id":5778,"date":"2016-07-07T13:49:47","date_gmt":"2016-07-07T05:49:47","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=5778"},"modified":"2016-07-07T13:49:47","modified_gmt":"2016-07-07T05:49:47","slug":"new-normal-3","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=5778","title":{"rendered":"New Normal"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>I really don&#8217;t know on how to start this post but I just need to put this one here&#8230;<\/p>\n<p>For the past weeks, I am not really okay, many would think that I should be happy but really, I am happy for what&#8217;s going on with my life right now and I really appreciate it but there are things in life that you still feel that emptiness despite of what you have because you know deep inside of you that you can&#8217;t have that one thing you ever wish for.<\/p>\n<p>There are moments when I woke up and I thought that I have a great day, then suddenly something from my past keeps on replaying. That hospital scene during Ayumi&#8217;s last hours keeps on replaying.. and while it happen I wanted to scream and cry but I can&#8217;t make it. I don&#8217;t know how to react! It just keeps playing until I got tired and numb then I just go on with my daily activity. That&#8217;s how usually my day starts.<\/p>\n<p>So many great things are going on right now particularly in our business but behind all of this is a feeling of lost and emptiness. It is going to be like this and maybe this is what they called the New Normal and I am embracing it now. Maybe I should get used to this feeling, maybe I should get used to this nightmare and I just hope that my body and the whole system will go with the flow and it will make me feel better.<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"\" src=\"https:\/\/scontent.fmnl4-3.fna.fbcdn.net\/v\/t1.0-9\/13524542_1323234757691145_2766195605955446061_n.jpg?oh=7d56eeeb70f8a4e8a4e4c614f4ee76c9&amp;oe=57F5710E\" width=\"777\" height=\"777\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"<p>I really don&#8217;t know on how to start this post but I just need to put this one here&#8230; For the past weeks, I am not really okay, many would think that I should be happy but really, I am happy for what&#8217;s going on with my life right now and I really appreciate it&hellip; <\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[253],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-5778","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-grieving-mom"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5778","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcomments&post=5778"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5778\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":5779,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=\/wp\/v2\/posts\/5778\/revisions\/5779"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fmedia&parent=5778"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Fcategories&post=5778"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/index.php?rest_route=%2Fwp%2Fv2%2Ftags&post=5778"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}