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<\/a><\/p>\nIt’s been 4 years already! Time flies so fast but still the pain is still the same. Though I learn how to live each day with the pain and I master of hiding the pain. I think everyone around me move on already but deep inside of me, I never move on. I just have no choice but to go on with my life and live normally just like everyone.<\/p>\n
I still remember everything on that gloomy day! I still remember how I feel the emptiness. I still remember everything and I can’t even describe the feeling of loss. It is the worst feeling ever.<\/p>\n
Sometimes I am surprised about myself. I wonder how I survived. I wonder how I go on with my life.<\/p>\n
I know that God is the master of it all. I know that everything is His plan and I know that someday I will understand everything. During those moments, I know that God carried me. I never felt that kind of strength and I believe that it is all His works.<\/p>\n
He is indeed in control of everything.<\/p>\n
Whatever will happen in my life, I know that He is in control and it is His will. As His child, I have no other things to do but to follow Him.<\/p>\n
I am so thankful that He is with me all this time.<\/p>\n
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I miss you so much Pillow! I wish to hug you so tight!<\/p>\n
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