{"id":8616,"date":"2018-01-07T03:21:09","date_gmt":"2018-01-06T19:21:09","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=8616"},"modified":"2018-01-07T03:21:09","modified_gmt":"2018-01-06T19:21:09","slug":"5th-year","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.bubblymom.com\/?p=8616","title":{"rendered":"5th Year"},"content":{"rendered":"

It’s been 5 years..\u00a0 since I last hugged my Ayumi.<\/p>\n

I miss her everyday!<\/p>\n

I still don’t know how I made it this far. Maybe by God’s grace I was able to survive. Maybe I am trying to move on because I know there is nothing left to do.<\/p>\n

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My life after her is still way different than usual. It would be better if she is still around.<\/p>\n

Sometimes I am just acting normal because it is the right thing to do but still there is part of me that is missing.<\/p>\n

No one can fill it up.<\/p>\n

I will forever long for her…<\/p>\n

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Maybe having Xavier is a big help for my survival. But he’s not a replacement. Iba iba sila. Iba ang pagmamahal ko kay Ayumi at iba din kay Xavier.<\/p>\n

Iba iba din ang nafill nila sa puso. I know some grieving mom can understand me.<\/p>\n

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I just hope that she is still with us. I really miss her so much! If only I can have her back. \ud83d\ude41<\/p>\n

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Everything seems so fresh. It’s been 5 years but still feel like yesterday. I still remember the pain.<\/p>\n

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So many things happened.. there were good and bad things since she was gone.<\/p>\n

It really tested me as a person, specially as a mom.<\/p>\n

There were times that I thought our family will never be whole again. I wanted to give it up… I’m just glad that God really guide me in everything.<\/p>\n

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It’s not an easy road. I have to deal with the pain every now and then.<\/p>\n

I just hope that I will never lose my faith along the way…<\/p>\n

Dear Ayumi…\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Wherever you are right now.. I hope you will continue to guide and watch us always.\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

We miss you so much!<\/em><\/p>\n

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Love,\u00a0<\/em><\/p>\n

Mom<\/em><\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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