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<\/p>\nAugust 3, 2018<\/p>\n
Still with a heavy heart, I get up and try to act normal.<\/p>\n
We went to Ayumi’s renting place.<\/p>\n
I talked to Xavier most of the time, specially those days when I was sad. He’s asking where is Ayumi and I always tell that him that she’s in heaven.<\/p>\n
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At the Resting Place<\/p>\n
Xavier: Mommy is this heaven?<\/p>\n
Me: (I don’t know what to say)<\/p>\n
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After that we went to the mall.<\/p>\n
I am not really in the mood of doing things but it is so unfair with the kids. So we watched movie and we let them play and bought toys.<\/p>\n
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I acted normal but deep inside I am really mourning…<\/p>\n
It’s been 5 years since she was gone but the pain is still the same…<\/p>\n
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There were better days…<\/p>\n
and there were sad days!<\/p>\n
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But I already learn how to live despite having that pain.<\/p>\n
It is already part of my system..<\/p>\n
I can’t do something about it anymore…<\/p>\n
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I just appreciate whatever I have and give thanks to God for the blessings…<\/p>\n
I believe that there are reasons for everything…<\/p>\n
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I trust God in everything and I know He has better plans…<\/p>\n
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