When I lost Ayumi, I know that I can have a new baby, not as a replacement for her because the truth is, no one can replace her. I wanted a new baby because we are longing to have a baby. Before Ayumi died, we are planning to have a new baby and I was joking to Ayumi days before she passed away that I have a baby in my tummy, at first she don’t like it, she got mad and cry but I explained to her that the baby is cute and will call her “Ate”, she stopped crying and kissed my tummy. Everytime I remember that scene, I know that I have her approval. 🙂
The night I found out that I am pregnant, I have this wonderful dream, I saw Ayumi dancing. She’s so happy and shouted “Mommy” in her very cheerful voice. Then I woke up and I know that she is really happy on what is going on to our life right now.
I am 7 weeks pregnant. When I found out, I really can’t believe it. I let the day pass first and watch my body change. I feel morning sickness at night and most of the time I am sleepy. Then I realized that it is real.
So I never wasted time and inform my friends about it. I got overwhelmed by the response. They are very happy. I really can’t believe that my friends are so happy with this new blessings. This pregnancy has a big impact to all my friends because they know how much I suffered when I lost my daughter. I become a different person.
I am excited for this new baby and I am taking extra effort to take care of my body this time because I am thinking of the safety of the baby.
Please say a prayer that this baby will be ours for the rest of our lives.
Thanks everyone!
God bless!