Yesterday was our company outing at Majayjay, Laguna, it was a great place and I will be posting more about it later. We got home around midnight and we were all so tired. The day before our outing, I only got 2 hours of sleep and that was the reason why I was so exhausted last night. When we arrived home, I just changed and let the kids sleep and forget everything… I sleep soundly and woke up around 9am. The traffic in Edsa was really bad last night at the same time, hubby asked me to take over because he was so sleepy already. So, I drive and I let him sleep for a while. Not to mention that the kids at the back, specially Xavier was cranky already. I was not driving for quite sometime because driving is not really my thing but I think, having the skill is not bad at all specially for those moments when hubby was tired. He was driving from Laguna and I can really see that he was already tired. He always wanted me to drive on my own because he wanted me to learn how to deal with those traffics and of course he believes that driving is also good for the mind. It is a good mind exercise and so I give in to his requests. Since, I am driving an Avanza, it was not a good car if you are driving alone and I am also thinking for getting a new car for personal use only. Oh well, I am saving for it now since I was done paying my first car and I think getting a new one is a perfect gift for myself.
Anyway, it was a busy week and having a side trip is always rewarding. We have business expansion in the coming months and it really made me so busy and restless. Sometimes I feel overwhelmed by all of my responsibilities but I really have to do it because nobody will take care of it and this is what I really love to do. So, no matter I feel so tired, I just have to do this because whenever I am tired, I just take a day off and sleep til I feel good and then I will be back to work. I am very thankful for all the blessings and really I never thought that my life will turn into this because I am just a simple human being that have a simple dreams and I am glad that God is showering me all of these and really beyond my expectations.
In between all my work, I am still grieving. I just want to pour this out. Maybe some thought that I am totally okay, but I am not. I’m still grieving and still wishing that my daughter is still with us. That experienced really changed me. Whatever I am today, is it because of that painful experienced. There were horrible days but I am learning to fight it and still have to look fine. So there…