New Normal

They tell me I must learn to live a new normal
But I’m not sure that I know how
There is nothing about my life that is normal
Not yesterday…not now.
Each morning I wake crying
Feeling totally down and blue
Is this the new normal they’re talking?
Is this my lifetime New?
I try to go on living
I try to hide the pain
This new normal is not working
How can they say these things?
I miss my baby more each day
With every single breath
There is nothing normal about this pain
Or the memories of his death
A new normal I can understand
It does make sense to me
But learning to live a new normal
Cannot be done so easily
Please tell me how to do this thing
Place a new normal in my life
I need to learn how right now
So I can be a good mother and wife
I will take each day as it comes
One day at a time
And when my new normal finds me
I pray I will be fine
~Renee Hogan Blythe