Starting a business is not easy. The most challenging part of starting a business is the capital. Having a capital is really crucial in starting a business and I just hope I have enough. It is always a challenge for me particularly this time that my business is growing and I have more ideas in mind but I need to hold on for a while because of the lack of capital. This is the moment that I wish I am rich enough to pursue my dreams but hey.. I am not. It is a struggle but I am holding on. I know that in time I will get through it. I know that I just have to pause for a moment and just work on what I have.
Lately, I am overwhelmed of all the things that are happening in my life particularly in my business. I really don’t have someone that I can talk to that is the same with my status. I don’t have friends who are really into this business so I don’t have any to open up. I just read books and talk to my husband about my plans. I have no one to confide to in terms of business. Somehow it’s frustrating… but I realized that being the head of the company, I should deal with it. Sometimes I based my decisions logically but still I need to use my heart and it’s hard sometimes but believe me, if you are in my situation, you will definitely used your heart more but you need to hide it from everyone.
I need to show that I am in control of everything, which is really the case but it’s not really always easy. It might look cool because I need guidance too, and with that I am relying on my faith. Hoping that I made a great decision everytime I made one.
Despite of what is going on right now, I am still so thankful for everything. Because I know that I will make it through. I know that is just part of the journey and part of my ultimate goal to help others and to build a company that will definitely help those who are in need.
There are days that I wanted to give up but when I look at my people’s eyes and situation, I know that I don’t have any reason to give up. I don’t have any reason to feel so down. I need to be strong and let my company grow because they are depending on me. I don’t want to disappoint them. I want to let them feel that I am here for them and I will do, with all my might to make things work.
So there you go.. I finally started sharing about me as a businesswoman. I think I should be doing this often because somehow I need to unload it from my system and I think that is also one of the reason why I have blog, because I need to express myself freely here. So please don’t judge. I also wanted to put some of my thoughts and feelings here so that someday I can easily reread this and maybe I will just laugh about this, because I know that I will overcome this hardships soon. Sooner than I think. Maybe, I will let my son’s or grandchild read my blog in the future and this explains how I struggle with my life but still I never give up.
God Bless everyone!