Thoughts

So 2021 came… then suddenly I was shocked of what happened…

Actually, I don’t really know how to open this thing here but as you know this blog is my personal space to express whatever I feel or anything I want to share… So think I should write it here just to release whatever I’ve been carrying since January 3, 2021.

Around 2am, I got a message from the office that one of my leaders died. It was a shocked to me. For minutes, I can’t move, I had chills and I don’t know what to say. It’s hard to believe… it was so painful. He was my leader for more than 2 years and we worked together for that long and I got to know him personally and in just like that he’s gone.

I was deeply affected. For a week, I was grieving and everytime I am in the office, it was not the same anymore. I lost a leader in my organization and this is the first time so I really don’t know what to do. By the way, it is not covid related so there is nothing to worry about health protocol in the office.

It took me a while before everything sinks in. I know he is in a better place now. It will never be the same but I need to be strong for the company. I know as a business owner, I will be strong and be able to step forward fast when something like this will happen but I am only human. Sometimes, I can’t carry it well but I always give myself time to mourn and heal also.

So that’s it.. I finally said it here and I hope this post will somehow lighten the heavy loads I am carrying this past few weeks.

I know I will get over it but for now… I am giving myself time to mourn…