I miss my little Ayumi so much.  The last scene keeps on playing on my mind right now. It’s quite different because I don’t panic anymore everytime I remember that painful moment. I am just wondering the exact time she last breath. I don’t know but it just made me sad.

 

I wanted to shout! I have questions but it seems that I can’t find the answer.

 

I am so emotional lately…

 

I even wonder what she is doing right now. I wanted to know her daily activities. I wanted to know her more. I wanted to have her more.

 

I am just longing for my baby and I can’t help but feel the emptiness and sadness again.

 

Being strong is not enough because there are really moments that I will fall in misery.