Monday is the busiest day but since I am almost done of my task, I think I should express some of my thoughts here. We are now preparing for moving to our new house. The renovation is almost complete and we are planning to transfer this weekend at the same time we will be having our Spa Grand Opening.
For so many good things that happen lately, I really don’t have time to think of all the pains. I am grateful for all the good things that happens to our life. But there are moments that I wonder if Ayumi is still with us, is our life change this way? Did I still make this life decisions the same way?
I realized that everything just fall into right place and sometimes it’s so hard to grasp why all these things are happening but I believe that the Man above has better plan than my plan. He is really in control of everything and I think we really have to trust in Him because He alone knows everything.
I hope that my daughter is proud of me, of all the things I accomplished not just on the material things but on how we face the pain of losing her. I still miss her everyday but I know that she is in a better place and maybe no matter how hard we try, His plan is better than ours and I know that He has better plan for my daughter. Her life maybe short but it was well lived and full of happiness. I am so lucky that God gave me a chance to be her mom and show my eternal love to her.
I will forever miss and love my Ayumi. 🙂
