Sometimes along the way, I feel the pain again. I worry a lot but I always tell myself that I should let it go. I should not live my life based on the past. I should create a new happy memory. I may feel down but I think it is just normal for a mom who lost a child.
Last weekend, I had a chance to be with my relatives. I am so happy to be with them and to my surprise, they don’t ask me about our lost. Maybe they just don’t want me to be in an awkward situation but sometimes I wanted to let them know that it is okay to talk about it. I am open to talk about her always.
Right now, I am enjoying every moment of my pregnancy. I can feel the baby’s movement all the time. I feel good everytime I feel her moving. I will be having my CAS ultrasound next month. I hope the baby will show his/her gender. 🙂