I hate it when I woke up and I feel so empty. I don’t know how to start my day. I don’t feel like doing something. You know that feeling that you miss someone but you just can’t express it freely because you know it will not change a thing. You know that you want to questions everything around you but your heart is fighting and your mind keep on reasoning and you have nothing else to do but to accept things the way they are.
You know that feeling that you are wondering what comes next… that feeling that you are afraid to get hurt but you know that it is impossible because that is really life is. One way or another we will get hurt. We will feel that pain… and you sometimes wish that all of this things are not real.. that the pain is just a dream. But when you wake up it is still there…
Yes, this is the moment when I miss my daughter so much and it seems that she’s really done with me. I miss her so much and I asked her to be in my dreams but I can’t remember anything about her in my dreams. Is she moved on already? Is she busy with her new life up there? Did she forgot that she has a mom here still longing for her?
If so… what else I can do?
That is the reason why I feel the emptiness and loneliness! This one of those moments that I wish all of this is just a bad dream!
