Jan. 3, 2015
Days before the anniversary, I was not feeling good. I don’t like going out. I just stayed the whole time in the bedroom. I don’t feel like facing people. Going out was a struggle. I don’t even want to watch tv or play with the kids. I wanted to be alone.
When the day came, the Jan. 3, 2015, around 1pm we went to her place. We bought flowers and balloons which my sister ordered the day before. We ordered KFC chicken just in case we wanted to eat at the cemetery. I don’t know, but I don’t feel that down that day. I woke up happy and that I can’t explain. I know that Ayumi is working so hard to make me feel good. I was the last one who get up to prepare and everyone was waiting for me. They know how hard it is for me to celebrate that day. They know how hard for me to drag myself for this event. The event that I don’t want to celebrate but I have to, to honor my daughter.
It was indeed a miracle that I made it without the feeling of so down. I was happy that day and I am thankful for Ayumi. She is really a great help.
I had fun with the balloons with Xavier.
One day, I will tell the story to Xavier. One day he will understand why we are doing this. One day I will tell him about Ayumi…
Hubby distributing the balloons.
We were ready to let go of the balloons. It is our love for Ayumi to Heaven.
They waited me to let go of my balloon first and then everyone followed. 🙂
Sending our love to her…
I still wish to have her with us. I never stop wishing… I know one day we will be together again and when that time comes, I will ask her why she gone so soon. I know there might be a reason for it but I still want to hear it from her.
