Category: Mist

 

This was taken during my Kindergarten Graduation and I was that little girl holding an umbrella. We were asked to have letters and it just happened that I picked the letter “U” so there you go… that explains why I was holding that umbrella na panira sa fashion ko. ahhaha

I remember when I was in kindergarten, I already had a crush that during our Christmas I prepare a gift for him. 🙂

I graduated with 3rd honor that time and it really made my parents so proud.

 

 

September 1, 2000

The day we lost her.

She’s the best thing happened to me. She took care of me. She worried a lot when I got sick. I can see it in her eyes that everytime I got sick she had this fear in her eyes. I never understood it before… but later on… I knew.

My lola lost a child twice. When she told me about it, I can sense the sadness from her voice and when I look in her eyes, she got teary eyed. Of course, I don’t have any idea how it was that time since I was very young when she told me about it.

She lost 2 babies, before she gave birth to my mother. The way she explained it to me, it was due to measles. I know those time measles was some kind of epidemic, just like Dengue today. My lola was never aware of it.

So when I was born, she was so protected of me. Everytime I got sick, she worried a lot. I spent most of my childhood days with her. I was closer to her than to my mother.

Back then, I never thought that one day I will lost her, she’s like a hero to me.

It seems that she knew how to fix everything.. akala ko andyan lang sya palagi.

I was her favorite apo.

She knew my favorite things. She knew when I was down. She knew when I was not in the mood. She knew about me.

Then one day, I got a call from Mindanao that she’s gone.

It was the saddest day of my life.

I miss her so much!

Yes, it’s been 17 years but I always miss her. I miss it when she got mad at me because I was not taking care of myself. I miss when she prepared my food. I miss it when she bring something for me everytime she went to the market.

I am so lucky to have her in my life and I will forever cherish it.

I hope when I live my life again, sya ulit ang lola ko.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

I don’t have a happy childhood.

Sobrang strict ng father ko. I was the eldest and everytime my mali akong magawa, palo agad ang katapat. Minsan sa sobrang sakit ng palo nila sa akin, yes sila, kasi kapag minsan sumasali pa mother ko, instead na kakampihan nya ako or pipigilan nya Papa ko, mas naging matindi pa.

Lumaki akong palaging may takot. Lumaki ako na dapat maayos lahat ang ginagawa ko kasi kung hindi siguradong papaluin ako.

Don’t get me wrong… pero sabi nila gustong gusto ng magulang ko magkaanak. For 6 years wala daw silang anak, gusto na nga nilang mag ampon non pero palaging minamalas sila kapag may gusto na silang aampunin. Kinukuha daw nong magulang nong bata so ang ending nalulungkot lang sila. Kaya nong nalaman na buntis na si Mama, sobrang excited lahat. Ako din ang eldest na apo sa Mother’s side kaya tuwang tuwa ang Lola ko.

I was also sickly.

When I was born, just a week I was born, kapag umiiyak daw ako non may dugo. They don’t even know kung ano yon. Pinacheck up daw nila ako pero hindi daw maintindihan ng doctor. Sa lampin ko daw may dugo daw talaga kapag iiyak na ako. Natatakot daw sila na umiyak ako kaso sobrang iyakin ko daw non. Eventually nawala din daw yon at hanggang ngayon it remained a mystery.

When I reached around elementary, I was so sickly. I had asthma attacked almost every week. Though I was always absents in class, I still remained as honor student. I am always belong to the top of the class. My grades were good and I don’t know how I made it since I was always absent. But when I was at home, I always read books and do my homework and review my lessons.

When my father helped me with my assignments, I ended up crying. May nakahandang pamalo lalo na kung hindi ko agad maintindihan ang tinuturo nya.

Though my father was strict and though it seems not a happy childhood because of some difficulties we had, I think I am still lucky. My Lola (grandmother) loved me so much. She is everything to  me. I am so lucky to have her. She showed me love and taught me so many things. I am her eldest grand daughter. I love everything about her. Though we are not rich, she never let me feel that we are poor. I never experienced hunger with her. Actually,  my family never let me experienced hunger when I grow up, that’s why I was not aware that we are poor. We always have food in our kitchen. I always see my Lola preparing food.

I also grew up in a farm like place. We had livestock, fruits and vegetables all around us. I grew up eating vegetable and fruits and that is the reason that until now, I see to it to have fruits and vegetables in our meal. I am just glad that my Lola introduced me to those things.

My childhood was not so bad at all but it was not really a happy childhood. Still… I am thankful for my childhood.