Day 6: Waiting for Rainbow Baby

 

March 7:

I always see to it to relax my body and mind so I just stay at home. I am also thankful to hubby that he takes care of me so well. He is giving me foot massage that really made me feel so good. I am also continue doing my crochet project and I think I will finish this one after giving birth.

How’s your day?

I miss the Me I Was when You Were Here..

I miss the me I was when you were here...

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Dear Ayumi,

When I sleep last night, I really can’t help but feel so sad. I miss your hugs and kisses. I woke up and I feel that you are there. You’ve given mommy hugs and kisses and that I realized that you never left me.

Anytime soon the new baby will come out and I know it will definitely change our life forever, just like when you came to our life. I still can’t believe that I will be giving birth without you. I know you will be happy to see this new baby because I know that you likes babies too. I wanted you to know that this new baby is not a replacement for your loss, You are always special to us and no one could ever replace you. I miss you everyday and I know I will never stop missing you. You are always my baby. I know that someday we will be together again but for now please continue watching over us and help us live our lives better.

I know that I am not yet ready to let you go. Most of your clothes and toys are still keep and I am not ready to give it away and I don’t know when I will be ready to give it away. But for now, I want to keep it because those are the only things that left that is from you. I will treasure them forever. I realized that I should never be ever complete because I don’t have you anymore. I don’t feel complete happiness since you’ve been gone.

I love you so much baby!

 

Love,

Mommy

 

Day 5: Waiting for Rainbow Baby

March 6:

Around 2am I had contractions and it happened almost every 30 minutes. I don’t really know what to do anymore. It is very uncomfortable. So hubby and I decided to go to the hospital to check if everything is okay. I imagined that time that maybe I will have my CS right away.

When I went to Pre Delivery Room, they monitor the heartbeat and contractions but to my surprise I don’t have contractions anymore just like when I have in the house. It seems that the baby is playing on me. LOL

My OB decided to inject something that can control the contractions and let me go home. So here I am just relaxing and hoping that the baby will wait until Monday.

 

Day 4: Waiting for Rainbow Baby

Since I am bored, we go out and tried the nearby new open coffee shop. We had a great time trying new food and just chilling with Gareth. I don’t feel any contractions while we are at the restaurant.

The baby is very active and I love it when I feel him kicking my tummy.

Day 3: Waiting for Rainbow Baby

Day 3 (March 4)

I woke up earlier than usual because the baby keeps on moving and I can’t go back to sleep. I am also very hungry when I woke up. My blood sugar is on a normal range. I feel good the whole day.

Later that day, we have plan to go out to the nearby restaurant but I feel so lazy, so I just sleep. When I woke up it’s already 9pm and still very lazy to move. My body seems preparing for the birth of the baby because all it really wants is to sleep.

I also try to continue doing my crochet project but it still way to go before I can finish his blanket. Maybe I should take it slowly. I also finish reading a book and I will definitely start a new book tonight.

My day seems normal this time. I can still check my Forex and so far so good. I am still working and this is good while waiting for the baby, something to divert my attention and I don’t get anxious most of the time.

The hospital bags are also ready and now in the car. Yes, we are ready and excited.

God Bless everyone!

and therein lives a great mystery....

Day 2: Waiting for Rainbow Baby

Day 2 (March 3)

I had OB appointment but before heading to her clinic, we get the ultrasound result first and so relieved to find out that the result is normal. I don’t have to have my operation early, so we need to wait until March 10. This time I am taking it easy. I am taking much of my time enjoying every moment of it.

After my check up we had our lunch at McDonald because I miss the chicken but I don’t like how it was prepared but still I ate everything because I was hungry as a monster. Then we went to my favorite coffee shop, Coffee Bean and had my Ice Blended Chocolate. It was the best. I am not taking any drinks with caffeine and so far it made me feel good. We stayed at the coffee shop longer until I feel sleepy then hubby decided to take me home before I fall asleep again in a coffee shop that I keep doing this past few days.

I’m glad I’m home because Gareth is waiting. We simply play and watch tv together. I spend more quality time with Gareth because I know when the baby comes out I will be with him always but of course I will still see to it to always have quality time with him.

 

Day 1: Waiting Time for Rainbow Baby

The countdown begins. My CS operation will be this coming March 10 and I think I should blog about it from Day 1 until the baby comes out.

So on our Day 1 (March 2), we just stayed at home. We are just having our movie marathon and we had a great time. Hubby downloaded movies and we stayed until 1am. I also experienced contractions every 30 minutes but I don’t feel any pain. It was a relaxing day and I am loving every moment of it. 🙂

Most of the time, I wanted to sleep. I feel so tired and I getting a nap is a big help. So everytime I got a chance to have my nap, I really take it. 🙂

How’s your day?

 

About Autism

When I found out that Gareth has autism it really breaks my heart a million times. There are sleepless nights and I really don’t know how to deal with it. But I never stop finding ways to help him. I met his doctor and teachers to discuss about his condition and they are very helpful. That was 4 years ago, when he was 3 years old. During that time everything seems so dark. I can’t see any improvement but we never stop giving him the best therapy. We never discouraged though we don’t see any development.

Now that he is 7 years old, so many changes already. He can now read and converse to us little by little. He can let us know what he wanted. He is also aware of his surroundings. We try to discuss to him things around him and it seems that he is picking it up easily. He learns a lot. He can memorize songs easily and I really can’t wait to see all the upcoming developments. I am so proud and happy for him.

Two weeks ago, his ipad was broken and since it is his teachers advice that we should not let him use any gadgets so we decided to keep it away from him. For the past few days after we keep it away from him, he is really doing everything to get it. He is trying to check every part of the house that he knows where we keep the iPad. There are nights that he is trying to wake up just to look for it but we keep it really good that he can’t find it.

After that he is trying so hard to talk. He is now more focus on what we are instructing to him. He can follow simple instructions and start playing with us. It is good to know that he is interacting with us. So we decided that we should keep the gadgets away from him permanently. We don’t also allow him to use our phone. This is really a good start since we are preparing him to enter big school. I know it’s gonna be a big challenge on our part but we thought that letting him try big school will definitely help him mature.

If you are experiencing worst this time because your kid might have autism, don’t give up. Don’t lose hope. Pray and don’t stop trying to discover what is right for you kids.

Have a blessed Sunday everyone!