I have so many dreams about her lately. On our way to South Korea, at the plane I dream about her. She is looking at me as if I scolded her.
Me: I got mad! You always have a choice to go back, you always have a choice not to go yet but still you left me. I am so mad at you.
Ayumi: She just looked at me and feel sorry.
In that scene, I really never thought I can tell that to her because I never hate her but in that dream I express something I can’t do.
One of the nights at the hotel, I dream of her again. We had our conversation.
I keep asking her different questions but I forgot it already.
Me: Asan si Pillow
Ayumi: Patay na si Lilo (She still called herself Lilo)
Me: Bakit ikaw pa?
Ayumi: Mommy, kailangan na si Lilo ni God.
I woke up and I start crying.
Some questions are now slowly answered. It’s just nice to know that she is the one who is helping me with the answers. I know it’s hard also for her but I am happy that she is trying.
I feel good everytime I had a dreams about her. It’s not everyday that I dream her and everytime it happens, there is a special message.
