I read somewhere that we really can’t control of all the things that will happen to our lives. Some are just so uncontrollable that all we can do is just to let it happen. When my daughter died, I wish I’ve done things differently but I realized that I’ve my best. All my best to let her stay but if it’s our fate to experience all this things then I just let it happen. Since then, I am not a controlling person as I was before. I don’t force things that I know that can’t be done. I let things flow in a natural way. In that way, my fears are lessen and I tend to enjoy life.
I don’t know but I feel so relax this days. I know that I have nothing to worry about. I know that God is in control of everything and I like it this way. I don’t want to stress myself on things that I can’t control and force the nature to answer all my questions. I just let things and I am hoping for the best to come. As long as I am not doing things that can affect other people lives then I have nothing to worry about.
My ultimate goal right now is to help. I am glad that I started a Scholarship Foundation through my daughter’s name. I am also focus on giving works. It is a nice feeling that you are helping people to have something on their table to eat. It feels so good that you are helping them build that dreams again that they never thought is possible. I like seeing happy faces and I will continue doing it for the rest of my life. I will use the blessings I have in giving hopes for the people around me.
Even in my darkest days, I am glad that I can still shed light. I am thankful for all the people that prays for me and for my family. I believe that those prayers is a big help that I was able to see hopes.
So no matter how hard it may be, I just hang on and believe that this too shall pass.