Xavier is now feeling better. Thank God!
I don’t know if he is just acting up because he asked me to hold my phone and He want me to take him pictures and then he acted like that. ahahahah Marunong nag emote ang baby ko.
Kapag may sakit isa sa kanila parang ang bigat bigat talaga. Lalo na kung maalala ko yong nangyari dati. Parang lahat ng sakit bumabalik. Ang trauma hindi pa rin nawawala. Minsan nagigising na lang ako at biglang natatakot for my kids. Hindi ko alam pero takot na takot ako. Minsan ang hirap intindihin ng nararamdaman ko. Kapag ganito na ang feeling ko, dyan talaga mas kailangan ko ng break. Mas kailangan kong mag isip isip. There’s so much things that I am taking care of and sometimes I don’t know what to do anymore but I need to pull myself and refocus on the things that are more important. I don’t want to dwell on things that I can’t control. I need to divert my attention to things that will make me a better one. That will make our life better.
I know someday I will be totally okay… someday…