I always asked Why? Why all this things need to happen? I have so many questions. I even wondered if I am a bad person. I don’t know but there are so many questions coming everyday. The worst part is I don’t get any answers. Most of the time, I just left the questions hanging. […]
I am a person who plan a lot. I made my yearly plans. I love taking notes of everything I wanted to do. I love planning. In an instant, I am different now. I don’t plan anymore. I just do things that I think right in a moment. Since I lost Ayumi, I stop planning. […]
A Child Loaned “I’ll lend you for a little time A child of Mine.” HE said. “For you to love the while she lives And mourn for when she’s dead. It may be six or seven year Or twenty-two or three But will you, till I call her back Take care of her for […]
Everyday is a new day, without you is like dreaming. Everything seems so unreal. It is always a struggle to start a new day. No matter how the sun shines every morning, it seems that I don’t appreciate it anymore. When the sun goes down and it’s time for me to sleep, I always see […]
There are moments in my life that I just hugged her and wish that very moment that it will be like that forever because it seems so perfect. I love waking up every morning with her around, singing and greet me a good morning. I love going home because she is waiting for me and […]
“Do not judge the bereaved mother. She comes in many forms. She is breathing, but she is dying. She may look young, but inside she has become ancient. She smiles, but her heart sobs. She walks, she talks, she cooks, she cleans, she works, she IS, but she IS NOT, all at once. She […]
I’ve kept my promise, of what I would do. To continue to live, my life without you. I get up each morning, I get through the day struggling past tears, every step of the way. I go on with life with, a forced happy face. My heart aches badly, for what I can’t replace. I […]
You can shed tears that she is gone or you can smile because she has lived. You can close your eyes and pray that she’ll come back or you can open your eyes and see all she’s left. Your heart can be empty because you can’t see her or you can be full of […]
It’s been a month baby since we parted. Though you are not with us physically, I believe that you are just around, just one breath away. You are truly our angel. I miss you so much! I love you forever!