August 3, 2018 Still with a heavy heart, I get up and try to act normal. We went to Ayumi’s renting place. I talked to Xavier most of the time, specially those days when I was sad. He’s asking where is Ayumi and I always tell that him that she’s in heaven. At the Resting […]
August 3, 2018 This is somehow a difficult time to write about. Today is Pillow’s 8th birthday. So I really don’t know what to do… I never have a plan. This should be a big event if only she’s here… Para akong ninakawan… marami pa sanang plano pero wala na… hindi na pwedeng gawin. I […]
I got these surprises from hubby. I am so thankful for all the efforts. Actually, I really don’t like celebrating Mother’s Day. When I lost my daughter, I stopped celebrating it. I don’t really feel the day anymore. When you lost a child, you will see things in way different than before. Everyday I have […]
Yes, I really don’t know how to celebrate her birthday and I’m not feeling okay. I had asthma attack for 2 days already. I am sneezing the whole time and I have a hard time breathing due to my cough. I can’t even go out yet because I still had fever. So we ended […]
I still clearly remember the day I first heard you cry… and I cherished it so much! Today we supposed to be celebrating your 7th birthday but without you, I don’t really know how to celebrate your day. I’m feeling down today and I’m not in the mood of doing anything! We just […]
Yesterday is one of those crazy days of my life. I was working for almost 16 hours yesterday. I stayed in the office until 10am. It was crazy. I am not a morning person, kaya kapag naarawan ako, sumasakit talaga ang ulo ko. I really wanted to curl in bed in a very dark room. […]
Sometimes I wake up wondering what’s going on with my life… I sometimes stop and wonder how I made it.. There are days that I wonder how I survived those hardships that I encounter from the past. When I saw Ayumi pictures, I can’t help but wonder how I survived her death. There are times […]
January 3, 2017 It’s been 4 years already! Time flies so fast but still the pain is still the same. Though I learn how to live each day with the pain and I master of hiding the pain. I think everyone around me move on already but deep inside of me, I never move on. […]
Last night hubby got a chance to check his videos archive and we happened to watch again some of the videos of Ayumi. We laugh a lot everytime we saw her kakulitans. We remember how lucky we are […]
August 3, 2016 I still remember the day Ayumi was born. As a mom, I know that I will never ever forget that moment. It still feels like yesterday. The day before her birthday, I was not feeling well. I don’t have the energy to go out but still I force myself. I know that […]