Ayumi’s 8th Birthday

August 3, 2018

This is somehow a difficult time to write about.

Today is Pillow’s 8th birthday.

So I really don’t know what to do… I never have a plan.

This should be a big event if only she’s  here…

Para akong ninakawan…  marami pa sanang plano pero wala na… hindi na pwedeng gawin.

I woke up feeling so down. I really don’t know what to do. I don’t have plans just like in the past years. Eto pa may mga memories na binabalik ang facebook, sobrang sakit. Nakita ko ulit kung papano kami nagcelebrate ng birthdays nya.

So ayon nagpunta muna kaming bank then I ordered flower. Dumaan sa Jollibee kasi yon ang favorite food nya. Then nagpunta na kami sa resting place nya.

Deep in my heart I wanted to celebrate but it should be with her.

I’m still wondering how she looks like in eight, her favorite color, favorite food, favorite places to go and I am longing so much about her.

The pain is still the same but I learn how to live my life in that pain.

So many things are going on lately and most of the time I am hoping that she is still with us to celebrate our success. I know someday everything will make sense to me but for now I will continue to live my life despite the confusions.