Yesterday is one of those crazy days of my life.
I was working for almost 16 hours yesterday. I stayed in the office until 10am. It was crazy. I am not a morning person, kaya kapag naarawan ako, sumasakit talaga ang ulo ko. I really wanted to curl in bed in a very dark room. But I have work to do.. I have so many things to accomplish..
Then, when I checked FB, I saw a friend posted about a death of a child.. then that’s it! Everything went crazy.. I wanted to hug my kids and just look at them. The trauma sits in… I was covered in fears ones again. We headed home and the kids are waiting for us. I stayed with them for a while but I was so sleepy and they were so demanding to play with me. I gave in. Remember those things keeps running on my mind while I acted normal? Oh.. it was really difficult. Then calls keeps on coming and I have to deal with it. It was already noon and my body is screaming for sleep.
Then I went to bed.. but still I can’t sleep. I feel that my body is shaking, the past keeps on replaying on my mind and it is really affecting me. Then I become so sensitive… then I know I have panic attack!
I make a point to relax myself. I need to control my self every time this happen. There you go.. the reality of my life.
