I got these surprises from hubby.
I am so thankful for all the efforts.
Actually, I really don’t like celebrating Mother’s Day.
When I lost my daughter, I stopped celebrating it. I don’t really feel the day anymore.
When you lost a child, you will see things in way different than before.
Everyday I have this feeling of emptiness, a feeling that no one can make you feel better no matter how the good situations are.
But then things changed..
Now that I have Xavier and he greets me.. I realized that maybe I should give it a try.
It is going to be so unfair for him if I will stay in that sad place.
He deserved to see the happy Mom part of me.
I don’t want to lose that glow because of the pain I had in the past.
I don’t want to create that image to my son’s mind that I am in deep pain and sorrow because I know it will affect him as a person.
I need to make extra effort to show my appreciation in everything that his doing to make me happy.
I want him to remember me that despite of my pain I still managed to be happy.
But when I am alone, I’m still longing for those little hands to hugs and those lips to kiss me. I just miss my Pillow so much.