40th Day
We visited her today with beautiful flowers and balloons that she love. I hope that wherever she is right now, she feel blessed and love. I know that you are happy right now. We miss you so much Ayumi. I love you!
40th Day
Dear Ayumi, Tomorrow is the 40th day without you! Most of the days, I still feel the pain. I miss you everyday and God knows how much I long for you. Everyday, I view your pictures and videos and it made me feel good and sad at the same time because I know that you’ve […]
Busy Day
Today is a busy day, we had our business Team Building and so far we had fun. I can now start laughing again. It seems that I am back in my old self but then suddenly it hit me again out of nowhere that I terribly missing my little Pillow. I miss calling her and […]
Kung Hei Fat Choi
Last year, we celebrated Kung Hei Fat Choi dining out. When me and hubby had our Singapore trip early last year, we bought an outfit for Ayumi for Chinese New Year. We let Ayumi tried it last December but she is not in the mood of putting it on but we insisted. (Taken last Dec. […]
Ayumi’s First Birthday
I remember it so well when I was preparing for Ayumi’s first birthday. I was so busy and all our friends who are staying million of miles away from us came to celebrate the special day with us. It was a big party that I can’t imagine. It was so perfect! I can still see […]
Why
I always asked Why? Why all this things need to happen? I have so many questions. I even wondered if I am a bad person. I don’t know but there are so many questions coming everyday. The worst part is I don’t get any answers. Most of the time, I just left the questions hanging. […]
A different Me
I am a person who plan a lot. I made my yearly plans. I love taking notes of everything I wanted to do. I love planning. In an instant, I am different now. I don’t plan anymore. I just do things that I think right in a moment. Since I lost Ayumi, I stop planning. […]
A Child Loaned
A Child Loaned “I’ll lend you for a little time A child of Mine.” HE said. “For you to love the while she lives And mourn for when she’s dead. It may be six or seven year Or twenty-two or three But will you, till I call her back Take care of her for […]
Missing Her so Much!
There are moments in my life that I just hugged her and wish that very moment that it will be like that forever because it seems so perfect. I love waking up every morning with her around, singing and greet me a good morning. I love going home because she is waiting for me and […]
Bereaved Mother
“Do not judge the bereaved mother. She comes in many forms. She is breathing, but she is dying. She may look young, but inside she has become ancient. She smiles, but her heart sobs. She walks, she talks, she cooks, she cleans, she works, she IS, but she IS NOT, all at once. She […]