August 3, 2015 It was Ayumi’s 5th birthday and I really don’t know how to celebrate it. So we just decided to visit Tagaytay with the whole family. I don’t want to do anything… I just want to see the view and just feel the moment… Actually, I don’t even know what I felt…
August 3, 2015 Five years ago, I gave birth to a beautiful baby girl, Ayumi. Then… I don’t know anymore what to write here… For quite sometime I am contemplating for her upcoming birthday. I was planning if I have to do the same as last year, like having balloons and cakes and we…
Sometimes I don’t want to watch the news anymore because it just made me sad. I checked my FB news feed and sometimes I don’t like what’s in there… I just wish that we are living in a happy world… but we are not… Because in a reality… maraming sakit.. In the past few days,…
Yes, it still hurts so much. Last night, I decided to start creating the Photo Book of Ayumi. So, I need to view her pictures. There are so much pictures. I was compiling it and before I knew it, I created 4 folders already with her pictures alone. From her baby pictures until the day…
I am so afraid of touching my things from the past coz’ I might saw something that will affect my mood. That will stop me from doing what I am doing and just remember the past. Today, I happened to hold my old planner. My 2010 planner when Ayumi was born. It made me remember…
Jan. 3, 2015 Days before the anniversary, I was not feeling good. I don’t like going out. I just stayed the whole time in the bedroom. I don’t feel like facing people. Going out was a struggle. I don’t even want to watch tv or play with the kids. I wanted to be alone. When…
This is the second time I celebrate Halloween without Ayumi and because of that I don’t have any plans anymore of letting Gareth and Xavier join any Treat or Trick. I don’t know but I am not as excited as before. I don’t feel good about it anymore. I don’t see any sense of it…
I miss her so much! I woke up today feeling so lonely. How I wish she is here with me. I wanted to hear her voice again. I wanted her to call me “Mommy”. I miss her so much. If only I can pick her up to where she is right now I will definitely…
September 18, 2014 Finally, we had our grand opening. I was preparing for it since last month and I feel good that finally my new branch is finally ready. 🙂 It was very tiring but everything is so worth it. So if you are from Antipolo, Rizal feel free to visit my spa. …