Category: Ayumi

It’s a busy day then suddenly I stop…   I miss her so much!  

Today is just like any other day. Full of pain but we still manage to smile and get through it. I don’t know how I survived 4 months without my daughter. Everyday is like a brandnew day. I don’t focus on the past anymore. I don’t focus much on the pain. If I have to […]

  Last night I have this wonderful dream about Ayumi. We are at the hospital and I saw her dead body and I carry it. Then we are at the restaurant. She’s with us. She is back to her jolly self. She told me that she didn’t die. She is always with us. Then we […]

  I miss you so much! I want to hug and kiss you again.

Dear Ayumi,   I miss you so much! I miss you everyday!   Love,   Mommy

Yesterday, I was feeling so down. I miss my little Ayumi so much. I am just glad that I can easily express my thoughts and feelings to hubby. He is my strength. In this trying moments, I don’t really know how to deal with my feelings anymore. It seems that the pain keeps on my […]

Today is Ayumi’s 100th day in Heaven. We visited her place and pray the Holy Rosary. Me and hubby watched her videos and as usual it made us laugh. She is still our joy. We miss her so much and we are longing to hear her laughter again. We wanted to see her happy ones […]

Dear Pillow, You are already on your 3rd month in Heaven. There never comes a day that I never think of you. You are always in my thoughts and in my prayers. I miss you so much! I am deeply in pain knowing that I can’t have you again. There are days that I badly […]