Dear Ayumi, Sorry if sometimes I don’t feel like moving. Sorry if I disappoint you. I know that I promised you that I will live my life to the fullest but there are days that I misses you so much that I just want to wait for us to be together. I don’t know, but…
Easter Sunday
Easter Sunday! I know that I should be celebrating today but I don’t feel like doing it. I don’t know how to start my day. We have plans already but I don’t feel like moving. I prepared the Tiramisu last night and I hope that it’s perfect and I hope that kids will love it.…
Our Bonding Moment
I created a pic collage of our bonding moment. I miss her so much and upon seeing our picture I realized that I am very lucky to be her mom. Amazingly, I don’t cry too much lately. I don’t know but it seems that day by day I accepted that I can have her…
Saturday
I sleep late last night. I had meetings yesterday and I feel so good. I am working so hard this time and hoping that it will help me cope the pain I trying to hide everyday. Anyway, when I check her pictures today, it suddenly made me feel bad because those pictures are just a…
Kiss
She’s really my angel. 🙂 I miss you so much!! I wish to dream of you tonight!
When I lost my daughter, I am looking for some parents that went through my pain because I wanted to know on how they cope up and how they move on. The support group is badly needed if you are grieving. I researched over FB and found out Grieving Mothers, a group that every mom…
Acceptance
It’s a busy week. Yesterday, I stayed at the spa whole day to monitor the sales and have some bonding moment with the staffs. I am so glad of getting to know them better. Today, I am working here at the Travel Agency office because I have so many paper works to do. There are…
I Love You
I miss you so much baby! I dream of you last night but I can’t remember all the details but I know that you are happy and I feel good when I woke up. I love you very much! Love, Mommy
Touching Poem
I read grieving books and when I read about this poem, it helps me understand why my Little Ayumi leave us so soon. Dearest Mommy When you wonder the meaning of life and love Know that I am with you, Close your eyes and feel me kissing you in the gentle breeze across your…
SO HARD TO SAY GOODBYE
IT HURTS SO MUCH TO KNOW WE’LL NEVER SEE YOUR FACE AGAIN WE’LL NEVER GIVE YOU HUGS WE’LL NEVER TOUCH YOUR SKIN WE’LL NEVER UNDERSTAND WHY IT WAS SO HARD FOR YOU TO TRY WE’LL NEVER HEAR YOUR VOICE OR GET TO SAY GOODBYE IT’S SO HARD JUST TO BEGIN TO UNDERSTAND YOUR CHOICE…